ever since i stopped workin at Studeo Grafix, my life is a mess. its totally meaningless! i dont know what i want to do throughout the day, i dont know what my plans are for tomorrow... i want to do something to my life but i just, dont feel like it now.
I DONT FEEL LIKE ANYTHING!
well in life, whatever we do, we have to do it with a purpose. if i wannabuy try on that expensive pair of boots, its ridiculous but yeah i just wanna look hawt in it for a while.
ok lousy example, i think my bloggin skills dropped, not that it was good all along but anyway...
there's this thing in life that i keep doing but i dont see the point of doing but i still am, doing.
you know us at this age, being somewhere around 18 till 23 or more, is the time when you lose the people around you, the ones you care, the ones you love, the ones you cherish.
we were in the same class for so many years in high school. not that we got close results but yeah, we were in the last class of pure science, fail the subjects and yeahhh! we get to be together! we use to make a fool out of ourselves in school, having the time of our lives... hey! thats the time when you get to break rules and ave fun getting away with it isnt it? then after we graduate, we just... lost contact. not that we hate each other, its just that we have different rings of friends. we still hang out now, like, once a year, and yeah you guys are in KL now and all... thats the thing.
then we have the other ring of besties that werent from the same class from the start, at all. maybe just once in form 1 or form 3. we were then never in the same class but we hang out all the time before and after classes, and during recess. we have sleepovers, share clothes and spill juicy updates. then one started college the other too and we see each other... not often. once a year? or maybe twice... then one goes away to further her studies and.. yeah thats the thing.
after that its the ring of college friends, from all over the world, from different backgrounds, different schools, different states or countries, and of course age and position when some are already parents. and now that im no longer in college, we still hang out but, yeah not often.
then you have another ring of friends, those you actually know through friends but u both just dont hang out with the one in the middle anymore. like A knows C through B and A is now really close with C and B just disappeared. awkward but yeah that's my other ring of friends, or friend actually. best of friends, everything clicked. anddddd she went away to study.
then you have those who work and the only time you have left is, really late nights out. short late nights out actually. and im not a night person cause sleep and health is forever my priority...
this ring includes my ex collegues actually. that ring is... hard. hard to book a time and all and eventually we see each other less.
then there's the ring of guys that i use to hang out with, till... and lost contact and... i dunno what the hell happened.
then there's the ring of exes. yeah... use to want to hang out but nop, not anymore.
sometimes i'm just left with the very few friends that i have. sometimes i needed the support from them but sometimes i get frustrated or annoyed i dont know what i should do. i dont stay angry but i just dont feel like it anymore. at times i do think its my own fault if problems arise, sometimes i just think that, if we dont click, we dont click, what to do when it keeps happening over and over again? having all the other rings of friends no where near me made me feel so lonely if i were to lose the very few ones around me. not to lose them but, to take a break or something. friends arent for people to dump or not. but whats the purpose of hanging out together when i know i wont be happy and all... simply cause they are the very few left and i dont wanna be lonely for now?
its rare to find the ones that can make each other feel so comfortable. i have many many different rings of friends. all having different personalities, if i were to throw a party and all are invited, i can gurantee they wont click.
i might be going away to study next year. where ever i go, i'll lose everybody until i come back, or they come back or untill i get new ones. even families and close ones. i might start a new job and god knows how my life would be like when that happens. sometimes, you just needed one person, one that can turn turn your bad day good by just being around. that one person that when you won a trip for 2 to bali, without even blinking you said u wanna go with him/her. one that you feel so comfortable you can share anything and everything. that one person that you could tell him/her...
"i saw this shirt the other day it was so nice but my size was sold out, they hav your size so i figured you could have a look, i know u'll look great in it"
"we had problem, i dont know what to do..."
"orange really doesnt fit you"
"come lets do something crazy like running across the park screaming with our hands in the air"
one that says to you...
"take that scarf off its ugly"
"u cant have that, its really bad for your cholesterol. have this instead. it tastes just as nice"
"i know things are troubling you, wanna stay over at my palce so you'll hav company?"
"nothing can come between us... we'r more than BFFs"
or something like that... i dont know what kind of post is this, some things are troubling me and i dont know what to say... am i being dependent? i really needed company...
be grateful for what i have, or dont have. know no regrets in life. know my goals in life. screw it, i'll just let my life live me instead of me living my life.
I DONT FEEL LIKE ANYTHING!
well in life, whatever we do, we have to do it with a purpose. if i wanna
ok lousy example, i think my bloggin skills dropped, not that it was good all along but anyway...
there's this thing in life that i keep doing but i dont see the point of doing but i still am, doing.
you know us at this age, being somewhere around 18 till 23 or more, is the time when you lose the people around you, the ones you care, the ones you love, the ones you cherish.
we were in the same class for so many years in high school. not that we got close results but yeah, we were in the last class of pure science, fail the subjects and yeahhh! we get to be together! we use to make a fool out of ourselves in school, having the time of our lives... hey! thats the time when you get to break rules and ave fun getting away with it isnt it? then after we graduate, we just... lost contact. not that we hate each other, its just that we have different rings of friends. we still hang out now, like, once a year, and yeah you guys are in KL now and all... thats the thing.
then we have the other ring of besties that werent from the same class from the start, at all. maybe just once in form 1 or form 3. we were then never in the same class but we hang out all the time before and after classes, and during recess. we have sleepovers, share clothes and spill juicy updates. then one started college the other too and we see each other... not often. once a year? or maybe twice... then one goes away to further her studies and.. yeah thats the thing.
after that its the ring of college friends, from all over the world, from different backgrounds, different schools, different states or countries, and of course age and position when some are already parents. and now that im no longer in college, we still hang out but, yeah not often.
then you have another ring of friends, those you actually know through friends but u both just dont hang out with the one in the middle anymore. like A knows C through B and A is now really close with C and B just disappeared. awkward but yeah that's my other ring of friends, or friend actually. best of friends, everything clicked. anddddd she went away to study.
then you have those who work and the only time you have left is, really late nights out. short late nights out actually. and im not a night person cause sleep and health is forever my priority...
this ring includes my ex collegues actually. that ring is... hard. hard to book a time and all and eventually we see each other less.
then there's the ring of guys that i use to hang out with, till... and lost contact and... i dunno what the hell happened.
then there's the ring of exes. yeah... use to want to hang out but nop, not anymore.
sometimes i'm just left with the very few friends that i have. sometimes i needed the support from them but sometimes i get frustrated or annoyed i dont know what i should do. i dont stay angry but i just dont feel like it anymore. at times i do think its my own fault if problems arise, sometimes i just think that, if we dont click, we dont click, what to do when it keeps happening over and over again? having all the other rings of friends no where near me made me feel so lonely if i were to lose the very few ones around me. not to lose them but, to take a break or something. friends arent for people to dump or not. but whats the purpose of hanging out together when i know i wont be happy and all... simply cause they are the very few left and i dont wanna be lonely for now?
its rare to find the ones that can make each other feel so comfortable. i have many many different rings of friends. all having different personalities, if i were to throw a party and all are invited, i can gurantee they wont click.
i might be going away to study next year. where ever i go, i'll lose everybody until i come back, or they come back or untill i get new ones. even families and close ones. i might start a new job and god knows how my life would be like when that happens. sometimes, you just needed one person, one that can turn turn your bad day good by just being around. that one person that when you won a trip for 2 to bali, without even blinking you said u wanna go with him/her. one that you feel so comfortable you can share anything and everything. that one person that you could tell him/her...
"i saw this shirt the other day it was so nice but my size was sold out, they hav your size so i figured you could have a look, i know u'll look great in it"
"we had problem, i dont know what to do..."
"orange really doesnt fit you"
"come lets do something crazy like running across the park screaming with our hands in the air"
one that says to you...
"take that scarf off its ugly"
"u cant have that, its really bad for your cholesterol. have this instead. it tastes just as nice"
"i know things are troubling you, wanna stay over at my palce so you'll hav company?"
"nothing can come between us... we'r more than BFFs"
or something like that... i dont know what kind of post is this, some things are troubling me and i dont know what to say... am i being dependent? i really needed company...
be grateful for what i have, or dont have. know no regrets in life. know my goals in life. screw it, i'll just let my life live me instead of me living my life.
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