im not sure if this annoys some of you as well, but have you ever came across poeple who likes to talk in a really SPECIAL way. like adding a certain alphabet at the end of certain words, for the purpose of... hmm, i dont even know why.
for example:
heix
weix / weiz
waix / waiz
hahax / hahaz
hehex / hehez
haihx / haihz
yalorz
larx
wahx
sleepz
erlox
harlox
byex
nitex
etc etc. cant really think of any more words right now.
for what? they added the alphabet to decorate the words they say? cause it looks or sounds cool? cause it has a special effect? doing it out of a habit? cause others are doing it too? cause they accidentally typed that word?
just because Jo ends with an 'o', i have decided to start the trend of writing words that ends with an 'o'. for example, heloo, weio, haiho, hahao, heheo, laho, byeo, nighto, muaxo...
yep... i think i sound kinda manja in a way. hahahaha! but it could end up to be my trademark style-o! =.=
Showing posts with label rants. Show all posts
Showing posts with label rants. Show all posts
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
busy.
imsobusyimsobusyimsobusyimsobusyimsobusyimsobusyimsobusyimsobusy.
i have so many things to blog about in so little time!!
this is the time when i need more hours in a day to get loads of things done.
so that i wont have to eat my breakfast in front of my laptop at 8.13 while typing this post. and i have to b at work before 9. im still not dressed yet my hair is dripping wet i dont never had enough sleep i might get canky along the day my nails are super ugly i need to repaint them i missed so many episods of drama series my eyes are puffy i need to poop. argh!!!!
anyway i cant blog with the iphone i dont know why. if i could i'll be blogging everyday at work! but i'll keep trying.
okbyez.
hapy easter! or whatever.
okbyez.
i have so many things to blog about in so little time!!
this is the time when i need more hours in a day to get loads of things done.
so that i wont have to eat my breakfast in front of my laptop at 8.13 while typing this post. and i have to b at work before 9. im still not dressed yet my hair is dripping wet i dont never had enough sleep i might get canky along the day my nails are super ugly i need to repaint them i missed so many episods of drama series my eyes are puffy i need to poop. argh!!!!
anyway i cant blog with the iphone i dont know why. if i could i'll be blogging everyday at work! but i'll keep trying.
okbyez.
hapy easter! or whatever.
okbyez.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
f it.
WHY DA HELL DID GOD INVENT PERVERTS N HIAO POS????
SHEESH!! a bunch of annoying trash. cant they stick to their own dicks or pussies?
MUST THEY SEEK FOR DICKS AND PUSSIES ALL OVER THE PLACE???????
GEEZ please kill yourself just because you exist.
SHEESH!! a bunch of annoying trash. cant they stick to their own dicks or pussies?
MUST THEY SEEK FOR DICKS AND PUSSIES ALL OVER THE PLACE???????
GEEZ please kill yourself just because you exist.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Scar on my knee.
The final flake of dried skin has finally shed, or rather 'peeled'. Leaving behind this long scar.
Knee is still swollen, numb patch still there. I can walk very normally now. occasionally i get to skip a bit, wriggle a bit. I still cant dance, i still cant jump. ==(
Pics...
With flash.
Without flash.
note: there are still peel-able skin around it if you notice ==D
Anyway earth hour day is tomorrow. *verbally jumps around* eeeek! im so excited! you know everybody has been talking about it lately. ==D and everybody is taking this chance to go out, treating it as a celebration actually. hanging out, buying party strings and all. kinda weird but me like it. ==D as long as its to support to earth ==D but kinda lame cause its just to switch off your lights and cherish the few minutes. hmm... anyways, remember t switch off your lights tomorrow!
im super sleepy right now. good night, whoever's reading this now. *yawn x8*
Knee is still swollen, numb patch still there. I can walk very normally now. occasionally i get to skip a bit, wriggle a bit. I still cant dance, i still cant jump. ==(
Pics...
With flash.
Without flash.
note: there are still peel-able skin around it if you notice ==DAnyway earth hour day is tomorrow. *verbally jumps around* eeeek! im so excited! you know everybody has been talking about it lately. ==D and everybody is taking this chance to go out, treating it as a celebration actually. hanging out, buying party strings and all. kinda weird but me like it. ==D as long as its to support to earth ==D but kinda lame cause its just to switch off your lights and cherish the few minutes. hmm... anyways, remember t switch off your lights tomorrow!
im super sleepy right now. good night, whoever's reading this now. *yawn x8*
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
scratch
I NEED TO SCRATCH MY SCAR!!!!
its driving me nuts wei.... ish!
Anyways, I miss my jeans so much! its been 3 weeks. almost, I need long jeans/pants. ==D
I dont think i can fit in my pants anymore. my left leg is still swollen.
Or maybe i got fatter. Lets hope it's cause i got fatter! ==D
its driving me nuts wei.... ish!
Anyways, I miss my jeans so much! its been 3 weeks. almost, I need long jeans/pants. ==D
I dont think i can fit in my pants anymore. my left leg is still swollen.
Or maybe i got fatter. Lets hope it's cause i got fatter! ==D
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
shut the hell up and please dont brag.
If you can afford an expensive piece of clothing, keep the extra info and DONT FREAKIN SHOW OFF.
If your boyfriend baked you a cake, keep it to yourself and DONT FREAKIN SHOW OFF.
If somebody compliments you, politely say thanks and DONT FREAKIN SHOW OFF.
If somebody gave you something, share but DONT FREAKIN SHOW OFF.
If you have 2 A's short to getting straight A's, DONT FREAKIN SHOW IT OFF and dont say "i have REALLY bad results" to the others who are 2 A's short to getting no A's.
If you have money, DONT FREAKIN SHOW IT OFF and say "i dont like my life right now cause it revolves around diamonds and pearls" to those who are so in need of money.
Or better still, just shut the hell up and count your blessings.
I know there was a post on jealousy a few posts back. But this has got nothing to do with jealousy. I would prefer to talk to a person who is humble and doesnt brag about the medals he won in beijing, the diamonds she fished from the boyfriend, the compliments he got from friends and judges. Cause the world aint all about you.
These days im super cranky. So dont freakin step on my tail.
Sheesh!
And when im not cranky, I spend my hours crying. So shut up and love your life cause you aint living your life like mine.
If your boyfriend baked you a cake, keep it to yourself and DONT FREAKIN SHOW OFF.
If somebody compliments you, politely say thanks and DONT FREAKIN SHOW OFF.
If somebody gave you something, share but DONT FREAKIN SHOW OFF.
If you have 2 A's short to getting straight A's, DONT FREAKIN SHOW IT OFF and dont say "i have REALLY bad results" to the others who are 2 A's short to getting no A's.
If you have money, DONT FREAKIN SHOW IT OFF and say "i dont like my life right now cause it revolves around diamonds and pearls" to those who are so in need of money.
Or better still, just shut the hell up and count your blessings.
I know there was a post on jealousy a few posts back. But this has got nothing to do with jealousy. I would prefer to talk to a person who is humble and doesnt brag about the medals he won in beijing, the diamonds she fished from the boyfriend, the compliments he got from friends and judges. Cause the world aint all about you.
These days im super cranky. So dont freakin step on my tail.
Sheesh!
And when im not cranky, I spend my hours crying. So shut up and love your life cause you aint living your life like mine.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Things that i cant do with an injured (healing) left knee.
- Pee properly in a public toilet.
i have to pee real fast or my right leg gets tired, and i cant use the squat toilet, it has to be the sitting one. - Paint my left toe nails.
- Cross my legs when i sit.
I love to sit that way! ==( - Stand properly.
I have to place my whole body weigh on my right leg and it gets tired easily. - Walk properly.
Everybody is staring at me like im some zombie! DO NOT stare at poeple. its so freakin rude. - Wear short skirts.
- Wear my jeans.
my jeans are all tight ones, cant have it pressing on my wound ==( - Walk from Old Town to Kenny Rogers in Queensbay Mall.
oww oww oww oww.... - Exercise.
I miss mother nature so much! my sweat glands needs to move it move it. - Feel a patch arounf my left knee cap.
It's numb and i believe i have lost my sense nerves around there. - Help around the house.
Sorry mom ==( - Hit my left knee just to see it jerk upwards, natural reflexes.
- Sleep with my favourite sleeping pose.
- Shower for a very long time.
- Fish between chores and movies.
cause i cant walk in and out all the time! - Carry a lot of things at the same time.
i lose balance. - Go shopping.
- Go cycling.
- Chase my dog around the house.
- Drive.
- Jump when i see a tarzan rope hangin down a big old tree.
- Jump around when i'm really really nervous for the speech tonight.
jumping makes me feel better when i'm nervous. ==( - etc etc. lol
i do want to be fat but not the swollen way.
random post
Seriously, people should consider opening restaurants or something that opens throughout the night for late sleepers, i bet they can earn a lot, why don't they SEEEEE that....jeez...
Gonna start experimenting on my own bubble tea recipes!!!! kekekeke.....
"The crown....something that the powerless people can't touch, something that the powerless can't grasp, something that the powerless can't take away" - quote Eyeshield 21 chapter 320
Damn this sentence sounds so powerful, full of confidence, i don't have other words to describe it for now...will add more when i think of some...haha
Gonna start experimenting on my own bubble tea recipes!!!! kekekeke.....
"The crown....something that the powerless people can't touch, something that the powerless can't grasp, something that the powerless can't take away" - quote Eyeshield 21 chapter 320
Damn this sentence sounds so powerful, full of confidence, i don't have other words to describe it for now...will add more when i think of some...haha
Friday, January 23, 2009
im sick ==(
my head hurts.
my ankle where i sprained my knee months ago, hurts.
my knee where i had a surgery last year, hurts.
my eye balls hurt.
my neck is tired. can barely support my heavy head.
my eye balls are sore.
my body is sore so is my heart.
i have a cut on my hand.
and i was sms-ing just now, back facing my towel hanger,
when i was done i was so shocked i thought somebody was standing behind me!
what the hell is wrong with me?
i need a doctor. probably a bomoh.
my ankle where i sprained my knee months ago, hurts.
my knee where i had a surgery last year, hurts.
my eye balls hurt.
my neck is tired. can barely support my heavy head.
my eye balls are sore.
my body is sore so is my heart.
i have a cut on my hand.
and i was sms-ing just now, back facing my towel hanger,
when i was done i was so shocked i thought somebody was standing behind me!
what the hell is wrong with me?
i need a doctor. probably a bomoh.
Monday, June 16, 2008
malaysians. Sheesh!!!
date: 15 junetime: 9pm++
place: jelutong road coming down from bukit dumbar.
i was driving my mom and dad. a motorcyclist coming from an opposite direction threw a brick or a rock at the window of the driver seat. at first i heard a loud BANG. i was shocked! i thought it was some explosives. dad thought the tire punctured. guess its some of those pig brained people trying to target female drivers. wanna smash their windows and get them to stop their car n when they get down from the car they get robbed. damn buta u know!
i mean, who in malaysia, which family werent even robbed or mugged or snatch-thiefed or kidnapped or have something stolen or have their houses broken into or something before?
years ago some motorcyclist snatched my mom's hand bag. then somebody stole our sneakers. including some of my dad's shoes. 3 pairs of adidas shoes! back then it was around 200 or 300 a pair. they didnt take the heels. then some bogus police tried to get me to follow him on his bike to the 'police office'. then somebody climbed in the fence n stole our garden table and chair.
and now, somebody tried to smash my car. wth! its karma's duties to kill people like that. ish!!!
more reasons for me to migrate
read THIS
Thursday, May 15, 2008
more pics for the F&N event...
got these from fi. so i posted more pics up...
Nic, Jo n Fi
some random shot after work. wooo my hair is longer now. haha
went to pee in the G hotel toilet.
(dad's idea. no harm. cleaner. plus, got a/c and toilet paper. why not? hahaha)
and this!! is something i really have to complain about.
see the 3 stars? well the 3 of them are the stars of the day. the main star is the one with the red star on her butt. some aunty kept going to all different booths for samples FOR BOTH DAYS and they took n took n took non stop. FOR OVER 30 40 CUPS OKAY!! damn brainless.
for god's sake THESE ARE FOOD SAMPLES NOT FREE FOOD FOR THE HOMELESS AND THE POOR! its for u to test it n if its nice please buy it yourself. not to take advantage and greed over food samples okay!
fi took the picture. unfortunately we couldnt take a full front shot of the rascal's face.
as for the green star fat boy. he's the fat aunty's son. now we know where he got his greedy genes from. he's not as bad as the mom cause the mom took like 30 40 cups a day while he took 2o or 30 cups.
as for the yellow star woman. fi n nic said she's as greedy and she's from the same family.
maybe she didint come to my booth or i was too busy digging ice cream into paper cups.
these people are crazy zombies. im so tak-syok even to give samples tot hem but gahhhh!!! whatever. i got my pay. more shoes for me. i feel better. hahahaha
Nic, Jo n Fi
some random shot after work. wooo my hair is longer now. haha
went to pee in the G hotel toilet.(dad's idea. no harm. cleaner. plus, got a/c and toilet paper. why not? hahaha)
and this!! is something i really have to complain about.see the 3 stars? well the 3 of them are the stars of the day. the main star is the one with the red star on her butt. some aunty kept going to all different booths for samples FOR BOTH DAYS and they took n took n took non stop. FOR OVER 30 40 CUPS OKAY!! damn brainless.
for god's sake THESE ARE FOOD SAMPLES NOT FREE FOOD FOR THE HOMELESS AND THE POOR! its for u to test it n if its nice please buy it yourself. not to take advantage and greed over food samples okay!
fi took the picture. unfortunately we couldnt take a full front shot of the rascal's face.
as for the green star fat boy. he's the fat aunty's son. now we know where he got his greedy genes from. he's not as bad as the mom cause the mom took like 30 40 cups a day while he took 2o or 30 cups.
as for the yellow star woman. fi n nic said she's as greedy and she's from the same family.
maybe she didint come to my booth or i was too busy digging ice cream into paper cups.
these people are crazy zombies. im so tak-syok even to give samples tot hem but gahhhh!!! whatever. i got my pay. more shoes for me. i feel better. hahahaha
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
no more F&N drinks for me please...
so i was working for an F&N event in gurney last weekend. good pay wei... too bad the sucky person in charge told me they only need 3 girls. so, the Lee 'sisters' went n work together. ==D
for 2 whole days, all we have to do is to jaga a booth, pour cartons n stacks of ice cream, milk, fruit juices and carbonated drinks, and we are giving them all out for free!!!!
Malaysians love anything that's free so, by having this event here, its actually making Malaysians love F&N even more. hahaha...
imagine giving out a lorry full of F&N products everyday for free!!! we get to dig the ice cream and give them all out on tiny paper cups. thats when its the busiest time of the whole day, cause everybody loves ice cream. on a hot day.
everybody thought that we were sisters, having to have the same surname. and so suey nicole was chosen not to jaga the free drink sample's booth, but to be around the stage for stage games. she said no then after that they picked me =.= i said no n they dont let me! T.T
okay fine, all i have to do is to take care of the kid's coloring competition. i even get to decide who is the winner. lol... if im one of the judges, i hope some of the parents bribe me to make their kids win, and then i get more money. muahahahah!!!! sommerset bay dressie here i come!!
i mean, i don really care who wins the prize. haha. im a really bad person. hmmm....
so this is where the whole event was held. we are giving out free samples that's why it would be messy. so we cant have the event inside gurney. its damn hot okay. the food sampling side is cooler cause its just in front of the main entrance door. the game side? well its like a sauna.
for 2 whole days, all we have to do is to jaga a booth, pour cartons n stacks of ice cream, milk, fruit juices and carbonated drinks, and we are giving them all out for free!!!!
Malaysians love anything that's free so, by having this event here, its actually making Malaysians love F&N even more. hahaha...
imagine giving out a lorry full of F&N products everyday for free!!! we get to dig the ice cream and give them all out on tiny paper cups. thats when its the busiest time of the whole day, cause everybody loves ice cream. on a hot day.
everybody thought that we were sisters, having to have the same surname. and so suey nicole was chosen not to jaga the free drink sample's booth, but to be around the stage for stage games. she said no then after that they picked me =.= i said no n they dont let me! T.T
okay fine, all i have to do is to take care of the kid's coloring competition. i even get to decide who is the winner. lol... if im one of the judges, i hope some of the parents bribe me to make their kids win, and then i get more money. muahahahah!!!! sommerset bay dressie here i come!!
i mean, i don really care who wins the prize. haha. im a really bad person. hmmm....
so this is where the whole event was held. we are giving out free samples that's why it would be messy. so we cant have the event inside gurney. its damn hot okay. the food sampling side is cooler cause its just in front of the main entrance door. the game side? well its like a sauna.
this is the sampling booth. its still early that's why nobody is there and im free enough to take pictures. lol
this is me in the sampling booth. giving out free orange and sarsi.
orange juice! with sacs. or at least thats what i think they are called. hmm...
full cream milk, low fat milk, chocolate milk. all giving out for free!!!!
me and the ice cream cup!
we got bored in the morning. hahahah..so we took a picture of the so called masterpiece.
we got very bored so we took pictures of ourselves through peep holes.
we got even bored so we took pictures of ourselves and friends.
we got even bored-er than that, so we took pictures of others taking pictures of themselves.
and then i got wu liao so i played the cup balancing game with myself. hahaha
even flies love F&N!!! ==D
we get to eat free ice cream! and drink our tummy out with all the drinks.i was thinkin i dont have to bring my own water bottle or something, there are so many different kinds of drinks that i can just, drink. ahhaha... but my parents keep askin me to bring water. cuz i'l be drinkin too much sweet stuff.
high cholesterol is enough for me thank you
and at the end of the day, the people in charge just gave out everything for free in bottles n all. n everybody just snatched like Myanmar cyclone victims. like so brainless okay...greedy like hell. they are just bottles of drinks that worth 1 or 2 bux. or even 3 and thats all.
look at them, just look at them. like zombies in resident evil hungry for blood. its not like they will die of hunger not drinkin F&N drinks right? sheesh!! Malaysians. sorry but if u spot a friend or a person u know in the picture, i... dont really care cause they are greedy maniacs!!!!
note: lets look at the color. hmmmmmm
so i was workin. and i didnt have time to accompany my cubby. smses are very few. sorry cubby.... i'll make it up to u ==/ love u *muax!*
note: lets look at the color. hmmmmmm
so i was workin. and i didnt have time to accompany my cubby. smses are very few. sorry cubby.... i'll make it up to u ==/ love u *muax!*
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
*dots*
things that never fail to make me happy
sometimes it just makes u so angry that none of the above can turn my day bright. i even had tomyam for lunch! n its practically useless. i cant taste anything on my taste buds.
f-er spoiled my mood. ish!!!! im going home to my box of candies tonight. hmmph!!!!!!
GAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- colorful things/objects /pictures /prints - smarties colored / rainbow colored
- kids, toddlers & non-annoying ones
- animals, pets & puppies
- music & my favourite songs
- beaches/ hilltops & mother nature
- good food - tomyam laksa junk food candies n sushi
- shopping!
- dates with cubby
sometimes it just makes u so angry that none of the above can turn my day bright. i even had tomyam for lunch! n its practically useless. i cant taste anything on my taste buds.
f-er spoiled my mood. ish!!!! im going home to my box of candies tonight. hmmph!!!!!!
GAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, April 21, 2008
another bright sunny day
"chit dao si teh suey liao eh, i've never been so suey in my life before," quoted from jeruk. sometimes things just dont bug me, but sometimes when someone is bugged by everything around him, he gets all pissed angry and cranky n fires shots of bullets at everybody else around him. making everybody around him suey too. i don see the sales person in charge of other camera brands being suey all the time, life isnt suey if u dont look at it the suey-way.
but if u don use the word suey, well i dont know what other words u can use on me.
frustrated by my project. everyday is a bad day workin under jeruk. had to rush to finish my part of the report which i cud hav finished it days before if we had group discussions n work as a group. and today? well some cina beng n lian climbed into my hse and stole our garden table n chair. 2 chinese. age 20+. 1 guy 1 girl. drove away in a what u know? motorcycle. kheng right?
dad's laughed it off n say suak liao la. n what do i think? they will rot in hell. their life is damned and cursed. in a few mins some lorry will run over their heads and they will be squashed into pieces. bitten by vampire bats. trip on a tree root and fall face down on a big pile of freshly baked warm cow shit. because karma will come back n slap them in the face till their jaws are fractured.
but if u don use the word suey, well i dont know what other words u can use on me.
frustrated by my project. everyday is a bad day workin under jeruk. had to rush to finish my part of the report which i cud hav finished it days before if we had group discussions n work as a group. and today? well some cina beng n lian climbed into my hse and stole our garden table n chair. 2 chinese. age 20+. 1 guy 1 girl. drove away in a what u know? motorcycle. kheng right?
dad's laughed it off n say suak liao la. n what do i think? they will rot in hell. their life is damned and cursed. in a few mins some lorry will run over their heads and they will be squashed into pieces. bitten by vampire bats. trip on a tree root and fall face down on a big pile of freshly baked warm cow shit. because karma will come back n slap them in the face till their jaws are fractured.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
im not done yet
grow up lah please. you're so childish that when relatives say "hey your younger sis is growing tall, she's now taller than u already"
and u go "no lahhh where got" with that no-way-ur-going-to-win-this face. then u stand upright, not slouching and stick ur chest as far as possible just to show that you're taller. please lah. i've got so so sooo many friends that their younger sister is taller. its like, so what? its in the genes. like this also u wanna fight? puh-leeeez... all the sisters in the whole world shud argue everyday just cause the younger one cant stop herself from getting taller. its like so childish. i dont care even if my younger sis is taller. its just normal and u just wanna fight over things like that. whats the big deal?? what's wrong with u???
all u want is to win. since when sisters get competitive? since i had a sister with the brain of the size of a guppy.
u have this locked cupboard in your room. hmm i dont think its big enough for u to keep everything in. u keep everything inside just cause u donwan me to take to use ma. i know. u even keep sanitary pads inside. the other day everybody went kl. u mom n dad. n it was my period day and im out of pads. then what? i smsed u to ask n see if u got or not. yeah.. u have those pads. its in the locked cupboard and the keys are with u in kl ma.. luckily i was going out with liang that night and we were stil friends and do u know how pai seh i was to go sanitary pad shoppin with a guy friend??? no u dont know. u dont even care do u?
you're so selfish and self-obsessed that u even picked out the spoons at home. 'this spoon is mine dont use it" even grandma uses it n u go ballistic. its like what the hell??? wash it afterwards lahhhh.
the other day we were arguing months ago and u told dad "hey im not the one who was caught shoplifting!" well for ur information, the first time i shop lifted, u taught me to. it was in kl u took a few pins frm a stall and i followed. afta that it has been a habit for me. all thanks to u. and i kept quiet all along. looks like i shud have told mom and dad like 8 years ago.
and afta i got into an accident and made a dent in the myvi, mom asked u to call the repair guy to arrange a date to fix the car n u went "why ask me to call!! im not the one who made the c ar this way!" 1. ur friend's dad works as the car repairman that we are about to call. 2. fine give me the damn number n i'll call him myself. wait u didnt gv me how to cal? maybe i shud go korek it out from your hp and risk getting screams from u about not-touching-your-stuff, just so u wont have to call. 3. u think i wanna get into that damn accident and waste a few hundred bucks? i think ur mind works that way. selfish self-centered.
if u wanna fight that way, well ur the one who doesnt have high cholesterol and doesnt hav to feed on cholesterol drugs to survive. ur the one who is fat and not stick skinny and is healthy all the way. you're not the one who got hospitalized so many times since birth. you're the one with a pretty face and a perfectly normal lower jaw and big boobs and plus, you're fat! you're the one with the perfect bf (well boo to u i got myself someone better now) and you're not the one who gets sick and make frequent visits to the clinic. you're not the one with asthma or whatever it is that makes my face hands n legs go numb. look you're life is perfect what do u want from me? if i wanna borrow anything from u, its cuz u have it n i dont. why the hell wud i wanna use your things if i already have my own? guppy brain. and when u use my stuff, well i keep quiet. its about time i stand up for myself and yeah things got worse. maybe liang's right. one of us should move out. maybe she will notice the absence of me one day and realize that im gone. what will happen then?
1. she will be happy she doesnt have to see my face anymore, she can have everything she wants. she doenst have to lock up her stuff. she's happy. thats good.
if not? 2. she will miss me. yeah and pig brains can fly.
"i dont need her!" well of course u dont, u only need calvin. cuz ur salary is $1000+ out of degree. and its the qian jin xiao jie's first job. hmmm... im pretty sure and confident that my FORTH job will earn more than that. within a year i can take care of mom and dad and u?
"my colleague earns 1000+ a mnth and her mom pays for her car, her rent, her food and all she spend on is nothing but shopping. so syok" oh so u wanna be like that. what a daughter. mroe reasons for me to go to aust or anywher else to get my degree just so i can take care of mom and dad. ur unreliable.
btw, u shud go and get a job as a private investigator. im really impressed how u found out that i used your pc for like 15mins. hmm... really really impressed. i kept everything as clean as possible. the photos as evidence? they were there since uncle sing's trip here. i cud have lied all the way and not admit that i used your pc. still, im still impressed. u really should be some CSI detective. u'd earn so much more, enough for u to go shopping everyday.
the only clothes of yours that im allowed to wear is what? clothes that u no longer want them anymre. hand me downs. i dont really mind. i have been wearing them since im a baby. but the ting that pisses me off is that im not allowed to share your clothes. only allowed certain clothes which after that i realize, after i wore them once u dont want them anymore. what do u think i m? charity? its like those that u dont want, and u treat it as rubbish, then only u give them to me. u use the word share. ur just sharing ur clothes with me. yeah right. bullshit. all ended up in my closet n mom n dad goes "u got so many clothes to wear already" when half of them is ur rubbish. i barely buy clothes. these few years only i start buying more because i realize that u were giving me rubbish all along. thanks, i appreciate your LOVING N KINDNESS but no thanks.
saying that what i wear isnt nice. i wear this n this is ugly. maybe i shud wear like u. nothing but long jeans and a shirt or singlet or spaghettis with a belt n heels. and thats it. thats all u wear everyday. stay safe huh? that doesnt earn u a privilege of being able to critic me. so just shut up unless your dressing taste is better than mine.
tak syok cause i get to drive the new car? well its just a myvi i tot u hated small sized cars. now u got the persona, i dont even care if i don get to drive a new car. its just a damn car what to fuss about? now im beginning to think that dad bought the persona just to shut u up. maybe, maybe not. u get to drive wat, u drive to work only ma. drive out at 9. park under the sun the whole day til 5 then u drive home. so u drive new car mom drive old car la izit?yeah i think it works that way selfish guppy brain. now u get to drive the new persona to work n park under the sun while mom drives an older car. hmm...
"y does she get to use this/do this/ go there when i dont get to do it when i was at her age!"
if u wanna argue about that, well i dont get as much freedom as u do when u were at my age.
mom always gets ballistic and dont let me drive the car when u get to, when u were at my age.
u wanna dye ur hair n mom goes hair-dye shopping with u. just cause u say u got white hair? i've got loads of them too! and when i say i wanna dye my hair, mom says "dont dye already u dyed last time. dont keep dying your hair" last time is like 2 yrs ago? the black hair came out from the roots and they have reached like my ears already.the last time u dyed? half a year ago. the last time my parents dyed? last month. they've got more white hair i know. but her? pfftt...
u go clubbing when u were at my age. n mom says, becareful. me? mom says no way, dont go. u wanna go i bring u there. like what the hell! if u wanna fight for fairness n equality, i've got so much to say that blogging is actually useless. u get to go to hotel stays. do i? once in a while.
when the both of us buy a new shirt at the same time, mom comes over n say "wat did u buy? let me see" cause she doesnt trust my taste!!! she wanna see what i bought then nag me about it, she doesnt even care what u buy! then if we both drove out alone. at 9pm mom n dad keeps callin me askin me to go home. then calls at 10pm. then a 11. then at midnight. u? u get the freedom that i dont. happy now? u got their trust n im just one of their worrying baby girl that will never grow up and will never let me go even if im like what? 20 yrs old? "20 n u think ur an adult d ar?" technically yes. thats what the dictionary says isnt it? yeah welcome to my life.
all these complains i've been keeping it to me for years. i kept quiet. not complaining at home doesnt mean i dont have anything to complain about. well now? the balloon burst. hooray to me. i wanna move out.
and u go "no lahhh where got" with that no-way-ur-going-to-win-this face. then u stand upright, not slouching and stick ur chest as far as possible just to show that you're taller. please lah. i've got so so sooo many friends that their younger sister is taller. its like, so what? its in the genes. like this also u wanna fight? puh-leeeez... all the sisters in the whole world shud argue everyday just cause the younger one cant stop herself from getting taller. its like so childish. i dont care even if my younger sis is taller. its just normal and u just wanna fight over things like that. whats the big deal?? what's wrong with u???
all u want is to win. since when sisters get competitive? since i had a sister with the brain of the size of a guppy.
u have this locked cupboard in your room. hmm i dont think its big enough for u to keep everything in. u keep everything inside just cause u donwan me to take to use ma. i know. u even keep sanitary pads inside. the other day everybody went kl. u mom n dad. n it was my period day and im out of pads. then what? i smsed u to ask n see if u got or not. yeah.. u have those pads. its in the locked cupboard and the keys are with u in kl ma.. luckily i was going out with liang that night and we were stil friends and do u know how pai seh i was to go sanitary pad shoppin with a guy friend??? no u dont know. u dont even care do u?
you're so selfish and self-obsessed that u even picked out the spoons at home. 'this spoon is mine dont use it" even grandma uses it n u go ballistic. its like what the hell??? wash it afterwards lahhhh.
the other day we were arguing months ago and u told dad "hey im not the one who was caught shoplifting!" well for ur information, the first time i shop lifted, u taught me to. it was in kl u took a few pins frm a stall and i followed. afta that it has been a habit for me. all thanks to u. and i kept quiet all along. looks like i shud have told mom and dad like 8 years ago.
and afta i got into an accident and made a dent in the myvi, mom asked u to call the repair guy to arrange a date to fix the car n u went "why ask me to call!! im not the one who made the c ar this way!" 1. ur friend's dad works as the car repairman that we are about to call. 2. fine give me the damn number n i'll call him myself. wait u didnt gv me how to cal? maybe i shud go korek it out from your hp and risk getting screams from u about not-touching-your-stuff, just so u wont have to call. 3. u think i wanna get into that damn accident and waste a few hundred bucks? i think ur mind works that way. selfish self-centered.
if u wanna fight that way, well ur the one who doesnt have high cholesterol and doesnt hav to feed on cholesterol drugs to survive. ur the one who is fat and not stick skinny and is healthy all the way. you're not the one who got hospitalized so many times since birth. you're the one with a pretty face and a perfectly normal lower jaw and big boobs and plus, you're fat! you're the one with the perfect bf (well boo to u i got myself someone better now) and you're not the one who gets sick and make frequent visits to the clinic. you're not the one with asthma or whatever it is that makes my face hands n legs go numb. look you're life is perfect what do u want from me? if i wanna borrow anything from u, its cuz u have it n i dont. why the hell wud i wanna use your things if i already have my own? guppy brain. and when u use my stuff, well i keep quiet. its about time i stand up for myself and yeah things got worse. maybe liang's right. one of us should move out. maybe she will notice the absence of me one day and realize that im gone. what will happen then?
1. she will be happy she doesnt have to see my face anymore, she can have everything she wants. she doenst have to lock up her stuff. she's happy. thats good.
if not? 2. she will miss me. yeah and pig brains can fly.
"i dont need her!" well of course u dont, u only need calvin. cuz ur salary is $1000+ out of degree. and its the qian jin xiao jie's first job. hmmm... im pretty sure and confident that my FORTH job will earn more than that. within a year i can take care of mom and dad and u?
"my colleague earns 1000+ a mnth and her mom pays for her car, her rent, her food and all she spend on is nothing but shopping. so syok" oh so u wanna be like that. what a daughter. mroe reasons for me to go to aust or anywher else to get my degree just so i can take care of mom and dad. ur unreliable.
btw, u shud go and get a job as a private investigator. im really impressed how u found out that i used your pc for like 15mins. hmm... really really impressed. i kept everything as clean as possible. the photos as evidence? they were there since uncle sing's trip here. i cud have lied all the way and not admit that i used your pc. still, im still impressed. u really should be some CSI detective. u'd earn so much more, enough for u to go shopping everyday.
the only clothes of yours that im allowed to wear is what? clothes that u no longer want them anymre. hand me downs. i dont really mind. i have been wearing them since im a baby. but the ting that pisses me off is that im not allowed to share your clothes. only allowed certain clothes which after that i realize, after i wore them once u dont want them anymore. what do u think i m? charity? its like those that u dont want, and u treat it as rubbish, then only u give them to me. u use the word share. ur just sharing ur clothes with me. yeah right. bullshit. all ended up in my closet n mom n dad goes "u got so many clothes to wear already" when half of them is ur rubbish. i barely buy clothes. these few years only i start buying more because i realize that u were giving me rubbish all along. thanks, i appreciate your LOVING N KINDNESS but no thanks.
saying that what i wear isnt nice. i wear this n this is ugly. maybe i shud wear like u. nothing but long jeans and a shirt or singlet or spaghettis with a belt n heels. and thats it. thats all u wear everyday. stay safe huh? that doesnt earn u a privilege of being able to critic me. so just shut up unless your dressing taste is better than mine.
tak syok cause i get to drive the new car? well its just a myvi i tot u hated small sized cars. now u got the persona, i dont even care if i don get to drive a new car. its just a damn car what to fuss about? now im beginning to think that dad bought the persona just to shut u up. maybe, maybe not. u get to drive wat, u drive to work only ma. drive out at 9. park under the sun the whole day til 5 then u drive home. so u drive new car mom drive old car la izit?yeah i think it works that way selfish guppy brain. now u get to drive the new persona to work n park under the sun while mom drives an older car. hmm...
"y does she get to use this/do this/ go there when i dont get to do it when i was at her age!"
if u wanna argue about that, well i dont get as much freedom as u do when u were at my age.
mom always gets ballistic and dont let me drive the car when u get to, when u were at my age.
u wanna dye ur hair n mom goes hair-dye shopping with u. just cause u say u got white hair? i've got loads of them too! and when i say i wanna dye my hair, mom says "dont dye already u dyed last time. dont keep dying your hair" last time is like 2 yrs ago? the black hair came out from the roots and they have reached like my ears already.the last time u dyed? half a year ago. the last time my parents dyed? last month. they've got more white hair i know. but her? pfftt...
u go clubbing when u were at my age. n mom says, becareful. me? mom says no way, dont go. u wanna go i bring u there. like what the hell! if u wanna fight for fairness n equality, i've got so much to say that blogging is actually useless. u get to go to hotel stays. do i? once in a while.
when the both of us buy a new shirt at the same time, mom comes over n say "wat did u buy? let me see" cause she doesnt trust my taste!!! she wanna see what i bought then nag me about it, she doesnt even care what u buy! then if we both drove out alone. at 9pm mom n dad keeps callin me askin me to go home. then calls at 10pm. then a 11. then at midnight. u? u get the freedom that i dont. happy now? u got their trust n im just one of their worrying baby girl that will never grow up and will never let me go even if im like what? 20 yrs old? "20 n u think ur an adult d ar?" technically yes. thats what the dictionary says isnt it? yeah welcome to my life.
all these complains i've been keeping it to me for years. i kept quiet. not complaining at home doesnt mean i dont have anything to complain about. well now? the balloon burst. hooray to me. i wanna move out.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
i consider myself an only child
U KNOW WHAT? I DONT THINK IM WRONG. I MAY BE WRONG TO USE UR PC WITHOUT UR PERMISSION BUT U KNOW WHAT? ITS BECAUSE U MADE ME THAT WAY.
I DONT EVEN RMB THE LAST TIME WE ACTUALLY TALKED OR EVEN HUNG OUT TOGETHER. IT HURTS WHEN FRIENDS CARE MORE THAN SISTERS DO. WHEN A BF DOES THAT, U CAN JUST LET GO AND FIND A NEW ONE. BUT JUST BECAUSE THAT BITCH IS BLOOD RELATED, WELL THERE'S NOTHING THAT I CAN DO.
SAYING THAT THE REASON U FOUND OUT IF CUZ THERE ARE MY PICTURES IN THERE? WELL UR SO STUPID YOUR BRAIN IS MADE OUT OF SHIT. THE PICTURES WERE THERE SINCE UNCLE SING WAS HERE. HE WANTED TO SEE MY PHOTOGRAPHY SKILLS AND SOME PICTURES THAT I TOOK. JEALOUS ARENT U? THAT I KNOW HOW TO TAKE ICTURES AND U DONT. WELL YOU'RE NEVER SATISFIED. YES THAT'S A STATEMENT AND A FACT. SINCE IM YOUNG, NOTHING I DO MEETS YOUR EYE.
I STILL REMEMBER IN PRIMARY SCHOOL, WHEN U WON SOME WRITING COMPETITION AND I WAS HAPPY FOR U. U WROTE THE ESSAY N U WON IT N U DESERVE IT. FAIR ISNT IT? I NEVER WON ANYTHING. U'VE GOT EVERYTHING U WANT SINCE YOUNG. WHAT THE HELL DO U WANT FROM ME? AND WHEN I WON SOMETHING THAT I DESERVE, NOT OUT OF LUCK, U GO "CHEH I OSO CAN LAH"
AND NOW UR SAYING THAT I USE UR THINGS, TOUCH UR THINGS N ALL WITHOUT UR PERMISSION? WELL JUST A FEW DAYS AGO JUST MINUTES AFTA I REACHED HOME, I SAW CALVIN TAKE OUT A DVD N PUT IN ON THE CUPBOARD OUTSIDE MY BEDROOM. N THAT MOVIE, WAS THE WARLORDS. N THE MOVIE WAS MINE. NO WAIT, IT WAS LIANG'S. AND I JUST ACTED DUMB. U WATCHED MY BF'S MOVIE WITHOUT ASKIN ME, AND UR FUSSING ABT IT WHEN I DIDNT EVEN DARE TO TOUCH CALVIN'S DVD OF HEROES ON THE TABLE LAST YR. OR WAIT, U DIDNT LEAVE IT ON THE TABLE, U KEPT IT AFTA U WATCH EACH EPISOD CUZ U DIDNT WANT ME TO TOUCH IT RIGHT? HMM.. AND IS ASK IF U CUD BORROW ME CUZ I WANTED TO WATCH AND U SAID WHAT AGAIN? "ASK CALVIN URSELF" WITHOUT EVEN LOOKIN AT ME. OH SO I CAN SPOIL SOME PIRATED DVDS DATS Y U DIN WAN TO BORROW ME? U'D SAY U WANNA BORROW WAT, ASK ME TO ASK CALVIN ONLY MA. BULLSHIT. I SHUD ASK U TO CALL ALL THE WAY TO AUST URSELF IF U WANNA WATCH WARLORDS.
THEN U GOT A NEW HP. A NEW PINK SLIDE HP FRM SONY ERICSON.
"OH COOL... LET ME SEE"
"DONT TOUCH MY THINGS!!!" SHE SNAPPED
2 YRS AGO I GOT MY NEW SONY ERICSON W80O. I JZ GOT HOME, DIDNT EVEN CHARGE IT OR ANYTHING. U WERE IN THE ROOM WITH CALVIN N U ASKED ME TO LET U SEE THE NEW HP. OKAY SURE ITS JUST A NEW HP U NVR KNEW THE FUNCTION U WANNA HAVE A LOOK, SURE Y NOT. CALVIN WAS THERE TOGETHER WITH U, HE WANTED TO SEE IT TOO, U GUYS EVEN PLAYED THE GAMES INSIDE. AND SO? I DONT MIND. NOW UR GIVING ME THE EXCUSE SAYING THAT I CANT HAVE A LOOK AT UR HP CUZ U JZ BOUGHT IT N THE BATT WAS LOW N U HAD TO GO OUT D. BULLSHIT U JUST DIDNT WANT ME TO TOUCH UR THINGS CUZ I CUD SPOIL A NEWLY BOUGHT SONY ERICSON WIHTHIN 2 SECS. WELL BEING A SISTER U CUD SAY "OH NO BATT D... I CHARGE D TMR ONLY LET U SEE LA" INSTEAD, IT WAS A PERMENANT STATEMENT. NO WAY DONT TOUCH.
THEN CALVIN TOLD ME, "ACTUALLY UR SIS VERY SAYANG U ONE, SHE BOUGHT U A NEW USB MP3 PLAYER THING THAT U CAN PLAY IN THE CAR" WELL YEAH SHE DID BUY ME ONE. IT WAS BLACK IN COLOR. THEN I FOUND OUT SHE HAS ONE IN HER CAR TOO. IT WAS WHITE. THEN GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT NEXT? SHE WANTED TO BARGAIN FOR A CHEAPER PRICE AND THE SHOPKEEPER WUDNT LET SO SHE BOUGHT 2 SO SHE CUD GET A CHEAPER PRICE FOR IT. AND SHE GAVE ME THE UGLIER COLORED ONE, WHICH IS THE BLACK ONE AND BOUGHT DIFF COLOR SO SHE KNOW BLACK IS MINE WHITE IS HERS, "DONT TOUCH THE WHITE ONE ITS MINE" I DIDNT EVEN ASK HER TO BUY. I DONT EVEN NEED THE THING. IF ITS NOT FOR A CHEAPER PRICE U WONT BUY FOR ME OSO LA ISNT IT? BUYING THAT FOR ME MEANS SAYANG ME? WHAT A MATERIALISTIC BITCH. I KNOW UR WORKING NOW. GOT MONEY D MA. AT FOREVER 21 I WANTED A NECKLACE WORTH $ 29 U WUDNT BUY FOR ME. SAY I ALWYS USE UR MONEY WHICH I DIDNT OSO. INSTEAD U R SOOOO GOOD U'D BUY ME SOMETHING MORE EXPENSIVE? DOESNT MAKE SENSE DOES IT? BUYING THINGS FOR ME MEANS SAYANG ME, Y NOT I'L JUST SLAP HER FACE N GV HER A TIFF& CO? THIS APPROACH IS USELESS ISNT IT? ALL I WANT IS A LESS RUDER SISTER WITH A BETTER PERSONALITY N ATTITUDE. SOMETHING U CANT BUY WITH MONEY CAN U?
NOW U JUST GOT BACK FROM WHER AGAIN? I DONT EVEN KNOW, WE NVR TALK. AND MOM SAID U BOUGHT SOMETHING FOR ME. HMM... MUST BE SOMETHING U BOUGHT THAT BENEFITS U THATS Y U BOUGHT FOR ME RIGHT? WELL I DONT WANT IT. NGO MM HEI HON.
ASK ME TO USE MY OWN LAPTOP IF I NEED TO ONLINE. LIKE DUH OF COURSE I'D USE MINE Y DO I EVEN BOTHER TO USE URS IF I GET TO USE MINE??? UR SO STUPID U THINK I'D USE URS JUST TO GET TO ARGUE WITH U N TAKE THAT RISK? THATS PLAIN STUPID-NESS. SAY I SHUD USE MY DAD'S LAPTOP THEN. I DID USE HIS LAPTOP. IT WAS LATE AT NIGHT DAD'S ASEELP. SO I SHUD WAKE MY DAD UP, SACRIFICE HIS SLP WHEN I CUD USE URS. WHAT A DAUGHTER. UR NOT AT HOME ANYWAY. SO IF I CANT BORROW IT FRM MY DAD, N ITS LIKE 11PM, I SHUD DRIVE OUT TO MY FRIEND'S HOUSE N USE THEIR COMPUTER. USE UR BRAIN LAH ITS LATE U THINK MOM N DAD WUD LET ME DRIVE OUT ALONE JUST TO ONLINE FOR 10MINS. N THE REASON THEY DONT LET ME GO OUT LATE AT NIGHT IS CAUSE ITS LATE N ITS A FRIDAY THERE MAYBE STREET RASCALS N MAT REMPITS. SO I SHUD RISK MY LIFE TO GO OUT WHEN THERE IS A COMPUTER RIGHT NEXT TO MY ROOM. SO UC AN LET UNCLE SING N AUNT USE UR PC FOR SO MANY DAYS N WILLING TO BRING IT OUT TO THE LIVING ROOM AND NOT LET A SISTER USE? HMM... MORE REASONS TO ELIMINATE ANY RELATIONSHIPS WITH U. U LISTEN N U LISTEN GOOD. I DONT HAVE A SISTER AND THE ONLY THING WE ARE RELATED TO IS OUR DNAs N THATS IT. OTHER THAN THAT, I DONT KNOW U.
IF I ASKED I WUDNT ET TO USE IT. IF I DONT ASK, I DONT GET TO USE IT EITHER. IF I ASKED, WE'D ARGUE, IF I DIN ASK WE'D ARGUE AFTA U FIND OUT. SO I THINK THE SAFER ROUTE IS TO RISK U FINDING OUT N USE IT CUZ I NEED TO USE IT. ASK N DONT ASK OSO SAME, Y BOTHER ASKIN? UR JUST SAYING "USE MY THINGS NONIT TO ASK ME ONE IZIT!!??" THAT'S JUST AN EXCUSE ISNT IT. WHATEVER I SAY U JUST DONT ACCEPT ONLY.
EVEN IF IM SICK U'D MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF IT JUST CUZ ITS MY TURN TO SHOWER THE DOG AND U GO COMPLAIN TO MOM N SHOW UR STUPID FACE N WHINE N COMPLAIN THAT ITS SUPPOSE TO BE MY TURN TO SHOWER THE DOG. WELL IM ON FEVER, I'VE GOT A SWOLLEN THROAT AND MY HEAD FEELS LIKE I HAVE A SCREW IN IT. I'D SHOWER THE DOG IF UR SICK. U WUDNT. I'D SHOWER THE DOG THE NEXT WHOLE MONTH IF U SHOWER HER TODAY. BUT NOOOOO U DONT THINK THAT WAY. U DONT CARE ABOUT ME. IF IM SICK ITS MY OWN PROBLEM CAUSE ITS SUPPOSE TO BE MY TURN. ITS JUST A GOD DAMN SHOWER THE DOG CHORE WHICH DIDNT EVEN TAKE 15MINS.
U COUNT EVERYTHING WITH ME!!!
"ITS SUPPOSE TO B HER TURN TO DO THE DISHES!!!"
"I MOPPED THE FLOOR LAST WEEK ALREADY!"
"GET OUT OF THE ROOM I NEED TO SLEEP ALREADY, U ONLINE WITH UR LAPTOP LIGHT AND THE TYPING IS TOO NOISY I NEED TO SLEEP"
"DONT TOUCH MY CLOTHES"
"DONT TOUCH MY BAGS"
"WHO ATE MY CAKE ON THE TABLE!!! MUST BE U!"
AND U JUST SCREAM THE WHOLE HOUSE IF U KNOW IT WAS ME WHO DID SOMETHING THAT U ARE JUST TAK SYOK ABOUT.
2 YRS AGO U USED A BAD WORD ON ME. U USED IT ON ME FIRST. I DONT CARE EVEN IF I USE ANY BAD WORDS ON U CAUSE IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE. A BITCH DESERVES TO BE CALLED A BITCH.
FOR UR INFORMATION I DIDNT SPOIL YOUR STUFF. U BORROWED ME A SPOILED MEMORY CARD READER N CLAIMED THAT I SPOILED IT. WELL MY CAMERA USES AN SD CARD. N BY USING THAT PORT, IT SPOILED THE MEMORY CARD SLOT THAT READS UR HP'S TINY MEMORY CARD. WOW. N SO I FIGURED IT WAS MY FAULT, I WENT TO THE PC FAIR N BOUGHT HER A NEW ONE THE VERY NEXT WEEK. NOTHING SATISFIES HER . NOTHING AT ALL. NOTHING CAN MAKE HER SATISFIED UNLESS IM DEAD.
SOMETIMES I THINK, WHAT MADE US THIS WAY? MUST ME SOMETHING I DID THEN. AND TO PREVENT ANYTHING FROM HAPPENING I'L JUST NOT TOUCH UR THINGS AT ALL N NOT TREAT U AS A SISTER. I TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY THEY TREATED ME. ALL ALONG U TREATED ME LIKE SHIT. I'VE BEEN ABLE TO HOLD DOWN AND JUST KEEP QUIET. NOW IM STANDING UP FOR MYSELF N IT GOT WORSE. GUESS THE ONLY SOLUTION IS TO CUT THE SISTER LINE.
U KNOW WHAT? SCREW IT. SCREW EVERYTHING!! I DONT HAVE A SISTER. MAKES ME FEEL BETTER NOT HAVING ONE
U MADE ME THIS WAY. FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS. NO WAIT, SINCE MNTHS AGO, I HAVE CONDSIDERED MYSELF A SINGLE CHILD. BUT FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS, IF PEOPLE ASK IF I GOT ANY SIBLINGS, I'L JUST SAY IM THE ONLY CHILD.
80% OF MY BRAIN TELLS ME TO RUN AWAY FROM HOME NOW. JUST SO I WONT SEE HER FUCK FACE. I DONT CARE NOW EVEN IF I CUDNT AFFORD TO GO OUT OF MALAYSIA TO STUDY, IM STIL GOING TO KL. I DONT CARE. I JUST DONT WANNA B HOME. I WISH SHE'D FASTER GET MARRIED WITH CALVIN N IT WUD B HIS PROBLEM TO SETTLE HER NOW. NOT MINE. AND I DONT HAVE TO SEE HER FACE ANYMORE AND MY LIFE WOULD BE HAPPIER.
AND AFTER I GRADUATE FROM DEGREE, IM MOVING OUT RIGHT AFTA I GET MY FIRST PAY CHECK. EVEN IF IM WORKING IN PENANG, IM MOVING OUT.
I DONT EVEN RMB THE LAST TIME WE ACTUALLY TALKED OR EVEN HUNG OUT TOGETHER. IT HURTS WHEN FRIENDS CARE MORE THAN SISTERS DO. WHEN A BF DOES THAT, U CAN JUST LET GO AND FIND A NEW ONE. BUT JUST BECAUSE THAT BITCH IS BLOOD RELATED, WELL THERE'S NOTHING THAT I CAN DO.
SAYING THAT THE REASON U FOUND OUT IF CUZ THERE ARE MY PICTURES IN THERE? WELL UR SO STUPID YOUR BRAIN IS MADE OUT OF SHIT. THE PICTURES WERE THERE SINCE UNCLE SING WAS HERE. HE WANTED TO SEE MY PHOTOGRAPHY SKILLS AND SOME PICTURES THAT I TOOK. JEALOUS ARENT U? THAT I KNOW HOW TO TAKE ICTURES AND U DONT. WELL YOU'RE NEVER SATISFIED. YES THAT'S A STATEMENT AND A FACT. SINCE IM YOUNG, NOTHING I DO MEETS YOUR EYE.
I STILL REMEMBER IN PRIMARY SCHOOL, WHEN U WON SOME WRITING COMPETITION AND I WAS HAPPY FOR U. U WROTE THE ESSAY N U WON IT N U DESERVE IT. FAIR ISNT IT? I NEVER WON ANYTHING. U'VE GOT EVERYTHING U WANT SINCE YOUNG. WHAT THE HELL DO U WANT FROM ME? AND WHEN I WON SOMETHING THAT I DESERVE, NOT OUT OF LUCK, U GO "CHEH I OSO CAN LAH"
AND NOW UR SAYING THAT I USE UR THINGS, TOUCH UR THINGS N ALL WITHOUT UR PERMISSION? WELL JUST A FEW DAYS AGO JUST MINUTES AFTA I REACHED HOME, I SAW CALVIN TAKE OUT A DVD N PUT IN ON THE CUPBOARD OUTSIDE MY BEDROOM. N THAT MOVIE, WAS THE WARLORDS. N THE MOVIE WAS MINE. NO WAIT, IT WAS LIANG'S. AND I JUST ACTED DUMB. U WATCHED MY BF'S MOVIE WITHOUT ASKIN ME, AND UR FUSSING ABT IT WHEN I DIDNT EVEN DARE TO TOUCH CALVIN'S DVD OF HEROES ON THE TABLE LAST YR. OR WAIT, U DIDNT LEAVE IT ON THE TABLE, U KEPT IT AFTA U WATCH EACH EPISOD CUZ U DIDNT WANT ME TO TOUCH IT RIGHT? HMM.. AND IS ASK IF U CUD BORROW ME CUZ I WANTED TO WATCH AND U SAID WHAT AGAIN? "ASK CALVIN URSELF" WITHOUT EVEN LOOKIN AT ME. OH SO I CAN SPOIL SOME PIRATED DVDS DATS Y U DIN WAN TO BORROW ME? U'D SAY U WANNA BORROW WAT, ASK ME TO ASK CALVIN ONLY MA. BULLSHIT. I SHUD ASK U TO CALL ALL THE WAY TO AUST URSELF IF U WANNA WATCH WARLORDS.
THEN U GOT A NEW HP. A NEW PINK SLIDE HP FRM SONY ERICSON.
"OH COOL... LET ME SEE"
"DONT TOUCH MY THINGS!!!" SHE SNAPPED
2 YRS AGO I GOT MY NEW SONY ERICSON W80O. I JZ GOT HOME, DIDNT EVEN CHARGE IT OR ANYTHING. U WERE IN THE ROOM WITH CALVIN N U ASKED ME TO LET U SEE THE NEW HP. OKAY SURE ITS JUST A NEW HP U NVR KNEW THE FUNCTION U WANNA HAVE A LOOK, SURE Y NOT. CALVIN WAS THERE TOGETHER WITH U, HE WANTED TO SEE IT TOO, U GUYS EVEN PLAYED THE GAMES INSIDE. AND SO? I DONT MIND. NOW UR GIVING ME THE EXCUSE SAYING THAT I CANT HAVE A LOOK AT UR HP CUZ U JZ BOUGHT IT N THE BATT WAS LOW N U HAD TO GO OUT D. BULLSHIT U JUST DIDNT WANT ME TO TOUCH UR THINGS CUZ I CUD SPOIL A NEWLY BOUGHT SONY ERICSON WIHTHIN 2 SECS. WELL BEING A SISTER U CUD SAY "OH NO BATT D... I CHARGE D TMR ONLY LET U SEE LA" INSTEAD, IT WAS A PERMENANT STATEMENT. NO WAY DONT TOUCH.
THEN CALVIN TOLD ME, "ACTUALLY UR SIS VERY SAYANG U ONE, SHE BOUGHT U A NEW USB MP3 PLAYER THING THAT U CAN PLAY IN THE CAR" WELL YEAH SHE DID BUY ME ONE. IT WAS BLACK IN COLOR. THEN I FOUND OUT SHE HAS ONE IN HER CAR TOO. IT WAS WHITE. THEN GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT NEXT? SHE WANTED TO BARGAIN FOR A CHEAPER PRICE AND THE SHOPKEEPER WUDNT LET SO SHE BOUGHT 2 SO SHE CUD GET A CHEAPER PRICE FOR IT. AND SHE GAVE ME THE UGLIER COLORED ONE, WHICH IS THE BLACK ONE AND BOUGHT DIFF COLOR SO SHE KNOW BLACK IS MINE WHITE IS HERS, "DONT TOUCH THE WHITE ONE ITS MINE" I DIDNT EVEN ASK HER TO BUY. I DONT EVEN NEED THE THING. IF ITS NOT FOR A CHEAPER PRICE U WONT BUY FOR ME OSO LA ISNT IT? BUYING THAT FOR ME MEANS SAYANG ME? WHAT A MATERIALISTIC BITCH. I KNOW UR WORKING NOW. GOT MONEY D MA. AT FOREVER 21 I WANTED A NECKLACE WORTH $ 29 U WUDNT BUY FOR ME. SAY I ALWYS USE UR MONEY WHICH I DIDNT OSO. INSTEAD U R SOOOO GOOD U'D BUY ME SOMETHING MORE EXPENSIVE? DOESNT MAKE SENSE DOES IT? BUYING THINGS FOR ME MEANS SAYANG ME, Y NOT I'L JUST SLAP HER FACE N GV HER A TIFF& CO? THIS APPROACH IS USELESS ISNT IT? ALL I WANT IS A LESS RUDER SISTER WITH A BETTER PERSONALITY N ATTITUDE. SOMETHING U CANT BUY WITH MONEY CAN U?
NOW U JUST GOT BACK FROM WHER AGAIN? I DONT EVEN KNOW, WE NVR TALK. AND MOM SAID U BOUGHT SOMETHING FOR ME. HMM... MUST BE SOMETHING U BOUGHT THAT BENEFITS U THATS Y U BOUGHT FOR ME RIGHT? WELL I DONT WANT IT. NGO MM HEI HON.
ASK ME TO USE MY OWN LAPTOP IF I NEED TO ONLINE. LIKE DUH OF COURSE I'D USE MINE Y DO I EVEN BOTHER TO USE URS IF I GET TO USE MINE??? UR SO STUPID U THINK I'D USE URS JUST TO GET TO ARGUE WITH U N TAKE THAT RISK? THATS PLAIN STUPID-NESS. SAY I SHUD USE MY DAD'S LAPTOP THEN. I DID USE HIS LAPTOP. IT WAS LATE AT NIGHT DAD'S ASEELP. SO I SHUD WAKE MY DAD UP, SACRIFICE HIS SLP WHEN I CUD USE URS. WHAT A DAUGHTER. UR NOT AT HOME ANYWAY. SO IF I CANT BORROW IT FRM MY DAD, N ITS LIKE 11PM, I SHUD DRIVE OUT TO MY FRIEND'S HOUSE N USE THEIR COMPUTER. USE UR BRAIN LAH ITS LATE U THINK MOM N DAD WUD LET ME DRIVE OUT ALONE JUST TO ONLINE FOR 10MINS. N THE REASON THEY DONT LET ME GO OUT LATE AT NIGHT IS CAUSE ITS LATE N ITS A FRIDAY THERE MAYBE STREET RASCALS N MAT REMPITS. SO I SHUD RISK MY LIFE TO GO OUT WHEN THERE IS A COMPUTER RIGHT NEXT TO MY ROOM. SO UC AN LET UNCLE SING N AUNT USE UR PC FOR SO MANY DAYS N WILLING TO BRING IT OUT TO THE LIVING ROOM AND NOT LET A SISTER USE? HMM... MORE REASONS TO ELIMINATE ANY RELATIONSHIPS WITH U. U LISTEN N U LISTEN GOOD. I DONT HAVE A SISTER AND THE ONLY THING WE ARE RELATED TO IS OUR DNAs N THATS IT. OTHER THAN THAT, I DONT KNOW U.
IF I ASKED I WUDNT ET TO USE IT. IF I DONT ASK, I DONT GET TO USE IT EITHER. IF I ASKED, WE'D ARGUE, IF I DIN ASK WE'D ARGUE AFTA U FIND OUT. SO I THINK THE SAFER ROUTE IS TO RISK U FINDING OUT N USE IT CUZ I NEED TO USE IT. ASK N DONT ASK OSO SAME, Y BOTHER ASKIN? UR JUST SAYING "USE MY THINGS NONIT TO ASK ME ONE IZIT!!??" THAT'S JUST AN EXCUSE ISNT IT. WHATEVER I SAY U JUST DONT ACCEPT ONLY.
EVEN IF IM SICK U'D MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF IT JUST CUZ ITS MY TURN TO SHOWER THE DOG AND U GO COMPLAIN TO MOM N SHOW UR STUPID FACE N WHINE N COMPLAIN THAT ITS SUPPOSE TO BE MY TURN TO SHOWER THE DOG. WELL IM ON FEVER, I'VE GOT A SWOLLEN THROAT AND MY HEAD FEELS LIKE I HAVE A SCREW IN IT. I'D SHOWER THE DOG IF UR SICK. U WUDNT. I'D SHOWER THE DOG THE NEXT WHOLE MONTH IF U SHOWER HER TODAY. BUT NOOOOO U DONT THINK THAT WAY. U DONT CARE ABOUT ME. IF IM SICK ITS MY OWN PROBLEM CAUSE ITS SUPPOSE TO BE MY TURN. ITS JUST A GOD DAMN SHOWER THE DOG CHORE WHICH DIDNT EVEN TAKE 15MINS.
U COUNT EVERYTHING WITH ME!!!
"ITS SUPPOSE TO B HER TURN TO DO THE DISHES!!!"
"I MOPPED THE FLOOR LAST WEEK ALREADY!"
"GET OUT OF THE ROOM I NEED TO SLEEP ALREADY, U ONLINE WITH UR LAPTOP LIGHT AND THE TYPING IS TOO NOISY I NEED TO SLEEP"
"DONT TOUCH MY CLOTHES"
"DONT TOUCH MY BAGS"
"WHO ATE MY CAKE ON THE TABLE!!! MUST BE U!"
AND U JUST SCREAM THE WHOLE HOUSE IF U KNOW IT WAS ME WHO DID SOMETHING THAT U ARE JUST TAK SYOK ABOUT.
2 YRS AGO U USED A BAD WORD ON ME. U USED IT ON ME FIRST. I DONT CARE EVEN IF I USE ANY BAD WORDS ON U CAUSE IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE. A BITCH DESERVES TO BE CALLED A BITCH.
FOR UR INFORMATION I DIDNT SPOIL YOUR STUFF. U BORROWED ME A SPOILED MEMORY CARD READER N CLAIMED THAT I SPOILED IT. WELL MY CAMERA USES AN SD CARD. N BY USING THAT PORT, IT SPOILED THE MEMORY CARD SLOT THAT READS UR HP'S TINY MEMORY CARD. WOW. N SO I FIGURED IT WAS MY FAULT, I WENT TO THE PC FAIR N BOUGHT HER A NEW ONE THE VERY NEXT WEEK. NOTHING SATISFIES HER . NOTHING AT ALL. NOTHING CAN MAKE HER SATISFIED UNLESS IM DEAD.
SOMETIMES I THINK, WHAT MADE US THIS WAY? MUST ME SOMETHING I DID THEN. AND TO PREVENT ANYTHING FROM HAPPENING I'L JUST NOT TOUCH UR THINGS AT ALL N NOT TREAT U AS A SISTER. I TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY THEY TREATED ME. ALL ALONG U TREATED ME LIKE SHIT. I'VE BEEN ABLE TO HOLD DOWN AND JUST KEEP QUIET. NOW IM STANDING UP FOR MYSELF N IT GOT WORSE. GUESS THE ONLY SOLUTION IS TO CUT THE SISTER LINE.
U KNOW WHAT? SCREW IT. SCREW EVERYTHING!! I DONT HAVE A SISTER. MAKES ME FEEL BETTER NOT HAVING ONE
U MADE ME THIS WAY. FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS. NO WAIT, SINCE MNTHS AGO, I HAVE CONDSIDERED MYSELF A SINGLE CHILD. BUT FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS, IF PEOPLE ASK IF I GOT ANY SIBLINGS, I'L JUST SAY IM THE ONLY CHILD.
80% OF MY BRAIN TELLS ME TO RUN AWAY FROM HOME NOW. JUST SO I WONT SEE HER FUCK FACE. I DONT CARE NOW EVEN IF I CUDNT AFFORD TO GO OUT OF MALAYSIA TO STUDY, IM STIL GOING TO KL. I DONT CARE. I JUST DONT WANNA B HOME. I WISH SHE'D FASTER GET MARRIED WITH CALVIN N IT WUD B HIS PROBLEM TO SETTLE HER NOW. NOT MINE. AND I DONT HAVE TO SEE HER FACE ANYMORE AND MY LIFE WOULD BE HAPPIER.
AND AFTER I GRADUATE FROM DEGREE, IM MOVING OUT RIGHT AFTA I GET MY FIRST PAY CHECK. EVEN IF IM WORKING IN PENANG, IM MOVING OUT.
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