i consider myself an only child

U KNOW WHAT? I DONT THINK IM WRONG. I MAY BE WRONG TO USE UR PC WITHOUT UR PERMISSION BUT U KNOW WHAT? ITS BECAUSE U MADE ME THAT WAY.
I DONT EVEN RMB THE LAST TIME WE ACTUALLY TALKED OR EVEN HUNG OUT TOGETHER. IT HURTS WHEN FRIENDS CARE MORE THAN SISTERS DO. WHEN A BF DOES THAT, U CAN JUST LET GO AND FIND A NEW ONE. BUT JUST BECAUSE THAT BITCH IS BLOOD RELATED, WELL THERE'S NOTHING THAT I CAN DO.
SAYING THAT THE REASON U FOUND OUT IF CUZ THERE ARE MY PICTURES IN THERE? WELL UR SO STUPID YOUR BRAIN IS MADE OUT OF SHIT. THE PICTURES WERE THERE SINCE UNCLE SING WAS HERE. HE WANTED TO SEE MY PHOTOGRAPHY SKILLS AND SOME PICTURES THAT I TOOK. JEALOUS ARENT U? THAT I KNOW HOW TO TAKE ICTURES AND U DONT. WELL YOU'RE NEVER SATISFIED. YES THAT'S A STATEMENT AND A FACT. SINCE IM YOUNG, NOTHING I DO MEETS YOUR EYE.
I STILL REMEMBER IN PRIMARY SCHOOL, WHEN U WON SOME WRITING COMPETITION AND I WAS HAPPY FOR U. U WROTE THE ESSAY N U WON IT N U DESERVE IT. FAIR ISNT IT? I NEVER WON ANYTHING. U'VE GOT EVERYTHING U WANT SINCE YOUNG. WHAT THE HELL DO U WANT FROM ME? AND WHEN I WON SOMETHING THAT I DESERVE, NOT OUT OF LUCK, U GO "CHEH I OSO CAN LAH"
AND NOW UR SAYING THAT I USE UR THINGS, TOUCH UR THINGS N ALL WITHOUT UR PERMISSION? WELL JUST A FEW DAYS AGO JUST MINUTES AFTA I REACHED HOME, I SAW CALVIN TAKE OUT A DVD N PUT IN ON THE CUPBOARD OUTSIDE MY BEDROOM. N THAT MOVIE, WAS THE WARLORDS. N THE MOVIE WAS MINE. NO WAIT, IT WAS LIANG'S. AND I JUST ACTED DUMB. U WATCHED MY BF'S MOVIE WITHOUT ASKIN ME, AND UR FUSSING ABT IT WHEN I DIDNT EVEN DARE TO TOUCH CALVIN'S DVD OF HEROES ON THE TABLE LAST YR. OR WAIT, U DIDNT LEAVE IT ON THE TABLE, U KEPT IT AFTA U WATCH EACH EPISOD CUZ U DIDNT WANT ME TO TOUCH IT RIGHT? HMM.. AND IS ASK IF U CUD BORROW ME CUZ I WANTED TO WATCH AND U SAID WHAT AGAIN? "ASK CALVIN URSELF" WITHOUT EVEN LOOKIN AT ME. OH SO I CAN SPOIL SOME PIRATED DVDS DATS Y U DIN WAN TO BORROW ME? U'D SAY U WANNA BORROW WAT, ASK ME TO ASK CALVIN ONLY MA. BULLSHIT. I SHUD ASK U TO CALL ALL THE WAY TO AUST URSELF IF U WANNA WATCH WARLORDS.

THEN U GOT A NEW HP. A NEW PINK SLIDE HP FRM SONY ERICSON.
"OH COOL... LET ME SEE"
"DONT TOUCH MY THINGS!!!" SHE SNAPPED
2 YRS AGO I GOT MY NEW SONY ERICSON W80O. I JZ GOT HOME, DIDNT EVEN CHARGE IT OR ANYTHING. U WERE IN THE ROOM WITH CALVIN N U ASKED ME TO LET U SEE THE NEW HP. OKAY SURE ITS JUST A NEW HP U NVR KNEW THE FUNCTION U WANNA HAVE A LOOK, SURE Y NOT. CALVIN WAS THERE TOGETHER WITH U, HE WANTED TO SEE IT TOO, U GUYS EVEN PLAYED THE GAMES INSIDE. AND SO? I DONT MIND. NOW UR GIVING ME THE EXCUSE SAYING THAT I CANT HAVE A LOOK AT UR HP CUZ U JZ BOUGHT IT N THE BATT WAS LOW N U HAD TO GO OUT D. BULLSHIT U JUST DIDNT WANT ME TO TOUCH UR THINGS CUZ I CUD SPOIL A NEWLY BOUGHT SONY ERICSON WIHTHIN 2 SECS. WELL BEING A SISTER U CUD SAY "OH NO BATT D... I CHARGE D TMR ONLY LET U SEE LA" INSTEAD, IT WAS A PERMENANT STATEMENT. NO WAY DONT TOUCH.
THEN CALVIN TOLD ME, "ACTUALLY UR SIS VERY SAYANG U ONE, SHE BOUGHT U A NEW USB MP3 PLAYER THING THAT U CAN PLAY IN THE CAR" WELL YEAH SHE DID BUY ME ONE. IT WAS BLACK IN COLOR. THEN I FOUND OUT SHE HAS ONE IN HER CAR TOO. IT WAS WHITE. THEN GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT NEXT? SHE WANTED TO BARGAIN FOR A CHEAPER PRICE AND THE SHOPKEEPER WUDNT LET SO SHE BOUGHT 2 SO SHE CUD GET A CHEAPER PRICE FOR IT. AND SHE GAVE ME THE UGLIER COLORED ONE, WHICH IS THE BLACK ONE AND BOUGHT DIFF COLOR SO SHE KNOW BLACK IS MINE WHITE IS HERS, "DONT TOUCH THE WHITE ONE ITS MINE" I DIDNT EVEN ASK HER TO BUY. I DONT EVEN NEED THE THING. IF ITS NOT FOR A CHEAPER PRICE U WONT BUY FOR ME OSO LA ISNT IT? BUYING THAT FOR ME MEANS SAYANG ME? WHAT A MATERIALISTIC BITCH. I KNOW UR WORKING NOW. GOT MONEY D MA. AT FOREVER 21 I WANTED A NECKLACE WORTH $ 29 U WUDNT BUY FOR ME. SAY I ALWYS USE UR MONEY WHICH I DIDNT OSO. INSTEAD U R SOOOO GOOD U'D BUY ME SOMETHING MORE EXPENSIVE? DOESNT MAKE SENSE DOES IT? BUYING THINGS FOR ME MEANS SAYANG ME, Y NOT I'L JUST SLAP HER FACE N GV HER A TIFF& CO? THIS APPROACH IS USELESS ISNT IT? ALL I WANT IS A LESS RUDER SISTER WITH A BETTER PERSONALITY N ATTITUDE. SOMETHING U CANT BUY WITH MONEY CAN U?
NOW U JUST GOT BACK FROM WHER AGAIN? I DONT EVEN KNOW, WE NVR TALK. AND MOM SAID U BOUGHT SOMETHING FOR ME. HMM... MUST BE SOMETHING U BOUGHT THAT BENEFITS U THATS Y U BOUGHT FOR ME RIGHT? WELL I DONT WANT IT. NGO MM HEI HON.
ASK ME TO USE MY OWN LAPTOP IF I NEED TO ONLINE. LIKE DUH OF COURSE I'D USE MINE Y DO I EVEN BOTHER TO USE URS IF I GET TO USE MINE??? UR SO STUPID U THINK I'D USE URS JUST TO GET TO ARGUE WITH U N TAKE THAT RISK? THATS PLAIN STUPID-NESS. SAY I SHUD USE MY DAD'S LAPTOP THEN. I DID USE HIS LAPTOP. IT WAS LATE AT NIGHT DAD'S ASEELP. SO I SHUD WAKE MY DAD UP, SACRIFICE HIS SLP WHEN I CUD USE URS. WHAT A DAUGHTER. UR NOT AT HOME ANYWAY. SO IF I CANT BORROW IT FRM MY DAD, N ITS LIKE 11PM, I SHUD DRIVE OUT TO MY FRIEND'S HOUSE N USE THEIR COMPUTER. USE UR BRAIN LAH ITS LATE U THINK MOM N DAD WUD LET ME DRIVE OUT ALONE JUST TO ONLINE FOR 10MINS. N THE REASON THEY DONT LET ME GO OUT LATE AT NIGHT IS CAUSE ITS LATE N ITS A FRIDAY THERE MAYBE STREET RASCALS N MAT REMPITS. SO I SHUD RISK MY LIFE TO GO OUT WHEN THERE IS A COMPUTER RIGHT NEXT TO MY ROOM. SO UC AN LET UNCLE SING N AUNT USE UR PC FOR SO MANY DAYS N WILLING TO BRING IT OUT TO THE LIVING ROOM AND NOT LET A SISTER USE? HMM... MORE REASONS TO ELIMINATE ANY RELATIONSHIPS WITH U. U LISTEN N U LISTEN GOOD. I DONT HAVE A SISTER AND THE ONLY THING WE ARE RELATED TO IS OUR DNAs N THATS IT. OTHER THAN THAT, I DONT KNOW U.
IF I ASKED I WUDNT ET TO USE IT. IF I DONT ASK, I DONT GET TO USE IT EITHER. IF I ASKED, WE'D ARGUE, IF I DIN ASK WE'D ARGUE AFTA U FIND OUT. SO I THINK THE SAFER ROUTE IS TO RISK U FINDING OUT N USE IT CUZ I NEED TO USE IT. ASK N DONT ASK OSO SAME, Y BOTHER ASKIN? UR JUST SAYING "USE MY THINGS NONIT TO ASK ME ONE IZIT!!??" THAT'S JUST AN EXCUSE ISNT IT. WHATEVER I SAY U JUST DONT ACCEPT ONLY.

EVEN IF IM SICK U'D MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF IT JUST CUZ ITS MY TURN TO SHOWER THE DOG AND U GO COMPLAIN TO MOM N SHOW UR STUPID FACE N WHINE N COMPLAIN THAT ITS SUPPOSE TO BE MY TURN TO SHOWER THE DOG. WELL IM ON FEVER, I'VE GOT A SWOLLEN THROAT AND MY HEAD FEELS LIKE I HAVE A SCREW IN IT. I'D SHOWER THE DOG IF UR SICK. U WUDNT. I'D SHOWER THE DOG THE NEXT WHOLE MONTH IF U SHOWER HER TODAY. BUT NOOOOO U DONT THINK THAT WAY. U DONT CARE ABOUT ME. IF IM SICK ITS MY OWN PROBLEM CAUSE ITS SUPPOSE TO BE MY TURN. ITS JUST A GOD DAMN SHOWER THE DOG CHORE WHICH DIDNT EVEN TAKE 15MINS.
U COUNT EVERYTHING WITH ME!!!
"ITS SUPPOSE TO B HER TURN TO DO THE DISHES!!!"
"I MOPPED THE FLOOR LAST WEEK ALREADY!"
"GET OUT OF THE ROOM I NEED TO SLEEP ALREADY, U ONLINE WITH UR LAPTOP LIGHT AND THE TYPING IS TOO NOISY I NEED TO SLEEP"
"DONT TOUCH MY CLOTHES"
"DONT TOUCH MY BAGS"
"WHO ATE MY CAKE ON THE TABLE!!! MUST BE U!"
AND U JUST SCREAM THE WHOLE HOUSE IF U KNOW IT WAS ME WHO DID SOMETHING THAT U ARE JUST TAK SYOK ABOUT.

2 YRS AGO U USED A BAD WORD ON ME. U USED IT ON ME FIRST. I DONT CARE EVEN IF I USE ANY BAD WORDS ON U CAUSE IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE. A BITCH DESERVES TO BE CALLED A BITCH.

FOR UR INFORMATION I DIDNT SPOIL YOUR STUFF. U BORROWED ME A SPOILED MEMORY CARD READER N CLAIMED THAT I SPOILED IT. WELL MY CAMERA USES AN SD CARD. N BY USING THAT PORT, IT SPOILED THE MEMORY CARD SLOT THAT READS UR HP'S TINY MEMORY CARD. WOW. N SO I FIGURED IT WAS MY FAULT, I WENT TO THE PC FAIR N BOUGHT HER A NEW ONE THE VERY NEXT WEEK. NOTHING SATISFIES HER . NOTHING AT ALL. NOTHING CAN MAKE HER SATISFIED UNLESS IM DEAD.

SOMETIMES I THINK, WHAT MADE US THIS WAY? MUST ME SOMETHING I DID THEN. AND TO PREVENT ANYTHING FROM HAPPENING I'L JUST NOT TOUCH UR THINGS AT ALL N NOT TREAT U AS A SISTER. I TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY THEY TREATED ME. ALL ALONG U TREATED ME LIKE SHIT. I'VE BEEN ABLE TO HOLD DOWN AND JUST KEEP QUIET. NOW IM STANDING UP FOR MYSELF N IT GOT WORSE. GUESS THE ONLY SOLUTION IS TO CUT THE SISTER LINE.

U KNOW WHAT? SCREW IT. SCREW EVERYTHING!! I DONT HAVE A SISTER. MAKES ME FEEL BETTER NOT HAVING ONE
U MADE ME THIS WAY. FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS. NO WAIT, SINCE MNTHS AGO, I HAVE CONDSIDERED MYSELF A SINGLE CHILD. BUT FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS, IF PEOPLE ASK IF I GOT ANY SIBLINGS, I'L JUST SAY IM THE ONLY CHILD.

80% OF MY BRAIN TELLS ME TO RUN AWAY FROM HOME NOW. JUST SO I WONT SEE HER FUCK FACE. I DONT CARE NOW EVEN IF I CUDNT AFFORD TO GO OUT OF MALAYSIA TO STUDY, IM STIL GOING TO KL. I DONT CARE. I JUST DONT WANNA B HOME. I WISH SHE'D FASTER GET MARRIED WITH CALVIN N IT WUD B HIS PROBLEM TO SETTLE HER NOW. NOT MINE. AND I DONT HAVE TO SEE HER FACE ANYMORE AND MY LIFE WOULD BE HAPPIER.
AND AFTER I GRADUATE FROM DEGREE, IM MOVING OUT RIGHT AFTA I GET MY FIRST PAY CHECK. EVEN IF IM WORKING IN PENANG, IM MOVING OUT.