new hairstyle!

Just had my hair trimmed. Me thinks my hair is too long. I just chopped 2 inches off my hair. It doesnt really make a difference but yeah, its healthier for my hair anyway. Fi kept asking me to stop asking her if I should cut my hair or not. I should just cut it. I wasnt bragging on how long my hair was, I just figured I should tame it a lil...
Then i got myself a fringe I'd never imagine me getting. I always think that my face is never cute enough for this, and I still think so too. Didnt really care what the hair stylist plan to cut my hair... when I take pictures right now, I tend to make an act-cute face and realizes it only when I look at the pictures. =.= I will try to control. hahahaha!

This was how my hair looked like last week. Which is the hair I like.

This was how my hair looked like moments before I cut it. Which is also the hair I like.

This is my new hair!
And an almost-side view of my new hair. The stylist tied it that way =.= she said its the new trend and young girls like me should have hair like this before we turn old like them =.= and said a lot of japs, koreans and taiwanese young ladies have this hair =.= I feel like a Barbie doll.

Its so nothing like Anne Hathaway's fringe =.= hahahah!

p/s: my forehead feels hot. it needs to breathe. lol

writting on a super tired brain.

avoidance is useless, cause it doesn't solve the problem.
its what cowards do, when they know it'll hit them.

acceptance is happiness. be willing to have it so, to overcome misfortunes.
make do of what we have, its when we try our best.

appreciation changes alot of things. from people to perception.
even animals know appreciation, we are friends to dogs, not their masters.

ignorance is bliss they say, how true is that?
living in my own world, i cant only see my own self alone.

sometimes when i have a feeling i try not to feel it.
at times im breathing in toxic air, but i cant try to not breathe.


anyway...
my knee is still numb, i wish my heart is too.

==S

I have this feeling somewhere inside of me, bugging me for days.
Located right above my stomach, somewhere between my stomach, n chest.
A sorey, soury, feeling that makes me sad n emotional when I try to focus all my senses on it, to discover what is the feeling actually.
Then I'll start staring blankly at something for hours.
And it makes me feel like throwing up when I see food.
It makes me wonder if Im sick.
How do I make it go away?

I've got no inspirations whatsoever to blog. I've had this great topic I'd like to blog about, this morning. But that was this morning. Maybe its not so great but, at least a better one than this.

Scar on my knee.

The final flake of dried skin has finally shed, or rather 'peeled'. Leaving behind this long scar.
Knee is still swollen, numb patch still there. I can walk very normally now. occasionally i get to skip a bit, wriggle a bit. I still cant dance, i still cant jump. ==(

Pics...
With flash.

Without flash.
note: there are still peel-able skin around it if you notice ==D


Anyway earth hour day is tomorrow. *verbally jumps around* eeeek! im so excited! you know everybody has been talking about it lately. ==D and everybody is taking this chance to go out, treating it as a celebration actually. hanging out, buying party strings and all. kinda weird but me like it. ==D as long as its to support to earth ==D but kinda lame cause its just to switch off your lights and cherish the few minutes. hmm... anyways, remember t switch off your lights tomorrow!

im super sleepy right now. good night, whoever's reading this now. *yawn x8*

scratch

I NEED TO SCRATCH MY SCAR!!!!

its driving me nuts wei.... ish!

Anyways, I miss my jeans so much! its been 3 weeks. almost, I need long jeans/pants. ==D
I dont think i can fit in my pants anymore. my left leg is still swollen.
Or maybe i got fatter. Lets hope it's cause i got fatter! ==D

Things that i cant do with an injured (healing) left knee.

1. Pee properly in a public toilet.
   i have to pee real fast or my right leg gets tired, and i cant use the squat toilet, it has to be the sitting one.
   
2. Paint my left toe nails.
3. Cross my legs when i sit.
   I love to sit that way! ==(
4. Stand properly.
   I have to place my whole body weigh on my right leg and it gets tired easily.
   
5. Walk properly.
   Everybody is staring at me like im some zombie! DO NOT stare at poeple. its so freakin rude.
   
6. Wear short skirts.
7. Wear my jeans.
   my jeans are all tight ones, cant have it pressing on my wound ==(
8. Walk from Old Town to Kenny Rogers in Queensbay Mall.
   oww oww oww oww....
9. Exercise.
   I miss mother nature so much! my sweat glands needs to move it move it.
10. Feel a patch arounf my left knee cap.
    It's numb and i believe i have lost my sense nerves around there.
    
11. Help around the house.
    Sorry mom ==(
12. Hit my left knee just to see it jerk upwards, natural reflexes.
    
13. Sleep with my favourite sleeping pose.
    
14. Shower for a very long time.
15. Fish between chores and movies.
    cause i cant walk in and out all the time!
16. Carry a lot of things at the same time.
    i lose balance.
17. Go shopping.
18. Go cycling.
19. Chase my dog around the house.
20. Drive.
    
21. Jump when i see a tarzan rope hangin down a big old tree.
    
22. Jump around when i'm really really nervous for the speech tonight.
    jumping makes me feel better when i'm nervous. ==(
23. etc etc. lol
    

AND I HAVE A FAT LEFT LEG!! ==( its stil swollen.
i do want to be fat but not the swollen way.

second cyst operation

i was hospitalized. again. for the 4th time in 4 years actually.
it all started with...
pain in left knee. suspected arthritis. scared the hell out of me. i have high cholesterol at such a young age. i might have arthritis too. lol...
did a scan. suspected ganglion cyst. had it removed through operation in 2007 it was in my old blog. me thinks. did a lab test on the thing. its a schwannomma cyst. >>click<< harmless and non-cancerous tumor. re grew itself throughout the months in between. had it removed again 3 days ago. doctor burned the surrounding cells to make sure it wont grow again. hopefully not.
just a minor surgery. don worry people. im alive.
there are chances of it re growing again. causes unknown. prevention unknown.

the nurse wrote it wrong. its written there, im only 19. lol... i must have looked young. hahha!

needle poked in my hand for injections.


homer pretending to be me.

surgery clothes.

homer wanting to scare the nurses. the nurse really did jump when she opened the curtains around my bed. thought i've turned into a hippo. lol. it was fun. hahaha!

breakfast. forgot to take pics of lunch n dinner. food there is lousy. i was hospitalized at lam wah ee last year. the food there is very good. nothing like loh guan lye.

me lookin blur and all. fi took the pic.

my swollen knee.

me n homer on the wheel chair.

me, jingling, fiona and half a quarter of liang. lol!

Leo club members decided to act as if they did a project on handicaps. him keat, wei chuen, me, fiona and zhang hao.

ong lai and me ==D

Fi's proud masterpiece. sort of. lol

fi, me on the wheelchair and my knee.

ward room door? lol

and people are wondering wats that thing inside. prepare yourselves! for pics of the cyst ==p
you can save it down and enlarge to have a very good view of it.
fi says it looks like hai som. sea cucumber.
dad says it looks like deformed egg yolk.
i say it looks like a deformed foetus. lol
you be the judge.

another pic for my hair

i dont have a better pic for now. ==D

new hair for me...

if you watch america's next top model season 11, you'll know Annaleigh. she's soooo pretty!
yeah i wan her hair! hehehe...
last few pics of my very straight hair. i did not straighten it ya. hehehe!
another pic...
and... another... i know im going to miss my straight hair...
a back view... it was actually longer, my head was lookin down.
another pic...
one last pic of my really straight hair...
then it goes....
VOOFM!
my new hair! not sure if i like it yet. wished i had longer fringe. i like my fringe with straight hair but not with curls.

anyway straight better or curls better?

i sprained my ankle

i sprained my ankle. no biggie. just blogging abt it. hahaha...

first layer
second layer
third layer.

it smells like a blend of seaweed, herbs, coconut skin, leaf juice, spices, the herbal tea you buy at the green herbal gui ling gou stall at malls (maybe plus some gui ling gou also). plus a hint of wild leaves and mud. hahahahah!!! im just saying..
hmm... maybe i could try and whip up my own herbal medicine. lol anybody wanna try my meds?

jocelyn was hospitalized last week

name tag

glucose water bag dripper thing

needle...

small injection. not painful

huge injection. very painful