i was suppose to b slpin last night. but i went n look around my friends' blogs n i came across this. decided to make u one. XD
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*surprise!!* hehehe
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Monday, March 24, 2008
Sunday, March 23, 2008
an article off the magazine
sometimes among a bunch of good ol' hang out buddies, there's one who has a girlfriend that nobody dares to talk about. because she's... well let's just say that she isn't a good gf. she complains about everything from the bf's job, to how he dresses, his hobbies... and when the beef is served, she complains about the beef being overcooked, or that the waitress is rude. sometimes when a best pal has a complainy gf, its hard to tell him "hey your gf is being a bitch. y do u like her so much? u deserve someone better".
so i was readin up this month's magazine, there was an article similar to this topic. so why do boys like bad girls? says the magazine, unfortunately bad girls have a certain allure. they present a challenge that nice girls dont. winning a nice goody goody girl doesnt feel like an achievement.
another reason to date a selfish woman, is that the guy can be selfish in return. certain guys will be terrified if the gf volunteered to do all the housework if she visits the house. some might be thinking, " but what does she want me to do for her? clean up her house when i drop by? /she's being so nice i think she wants something from me". the self-centered bitch however, would slip on her 4inch heels and suggest that the guy either dry clean your bed sheets or its over. rather than feeling indebt to her, guys feel angry, vengeful - liberated.
aside from that, some guys date girls who treat them bad, because they think they deserve it. they know they're lousy good for nothing jerks. they know their sexual energies peaked sometime ago. women who treat them well dont deserve their respect, they're convinced. but women who let them know that they're just as small and as rotten as they feel, well they are something special. because those women dont fake around treating them so good that they dont think that they deserve. not bitches but realists.
so... y do some guys still date bitchy girls? is love blind or..? hmmm.....
currently i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee our song by taylor swift ==) finally by fergie ==) yesterday by leona lewis ==) ahhhh!!!! music makes me so happy
so i was readin up this month's magazine, there was an article similar to this topic. so why do boys like bad girls? says the magazine, unfortunately bad girls have a certain allure. they present a challenge that nice girls dont. winning a nice goody goody girl doesnt feel like an achievement.
another reason to date a selfish woman, is that the guy can be selfish in return. certain guys will be terrified if the gf volunteered to do all the housework if she visits the house. some might be thinking, " but what does she want me to do for her? clean up her house when i drop by? /she's being so nice i think she wants something from me". the self-centered bitch however, would slip on her 4inch heels and suggest that the guy either dry clean your bed sheets or its over. rather than feeling indebt to her, guys feel angry, vengeful - liberated.
aside from that, some guys date girls who treat them bad, because they think they deserve it. they know they're lousy good for nothing jerks. they know their sexual energies peaked sometime ago. women who treat them well dont deserve their respect, they're convinced. but women who let them know that they're just as small and as rotten as they feel, well they are something special. because those women dont fake around treating them so good that they dont think that they deserve. not bitches but realists.
so... y do some guys still date bitchy girls? is love blind or..? hmmm.....
currently i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee our song by taylor swift ==) finally by fergie ==) yesterday by leona lewis ==) ahhhh!!!! music makes me so happy
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Scene 1 : The stirrings of an unknown feeling
A red car stopped right in front of Jocelyn's house, it was to be a harmless meeting between two old good friends. Through the gate she came and sat at the seat beside him, the first thing Yee Liang noticed is how the two year has evovled her from a girl into a lady. She was still ever skinny but, her long straight hair which grows well beyong her shoulders gave her a feminine look far different from the boyish yet cute image he had of her from way back. She brought a scent along her into the car, from her lotion he presumed, no make-ups and just a simple attire yet carrying an aura of elegance, walking straight and erect, while still having her smile he remembered well, with no trace of arrogance, just the way he would like his gf to be. That thought was cut short as from what he knew Jocelyn wasn't available.
Greetings were exchanged, so did the normal questions about how has it been lately, a little about Australia was said and of each other. In no time, familiarity from the old days kicked in and the awkwardness one have when you haven't seen one another for a long time was lifted. The conversation turned into a more relaxed one. Both began having friendly "arguements", lots of laughters as, a little teasing as they started to feel more comfortable in each others presence.
The chatter continued at Queensbay Mall as both of them walked around without a destination, not really looking at shops, instead both were immersed in what each other had to say, enjoying each others company, as a chemistry was struck, at least that was what Yee Liang felt. There was plenty of time left before the movie they had planned to watch begun, so Jocelyn suggested a walk outside as she felt cold. They ended up sitting side by side on the rocks facing the ocean, it was a nice sunny day with cooling wind. Still the topics came pouring in. For a moment Yee Liang's heart fluttered as he looked at her directly and with an observant eye for the first time, was it the closeness and the thing he felt between them the cause of it? Was it the smile she produced with those luscious lips coupled witht he sunshine which made her shone radiantly or was it simply the sea breeze blowing his senses away? He had to pause for a moment to gather himself, hoping Jocelyn didn't notice his reaction or the way he looked at her.
A picture was taken together and Yee Liang suddenly became more concious of himself, "am I dressed alright? I haven't trim my hair, does it look funny? what impression of me did i give?" it was all these questions that came flooding his mind.
Along with the sea, the gulls, the quietness of the surroundings, the calmness of the sea, and of course Jocelyn, he wished that they could just sit there on the rocks where only their voice were played and blended in with the sounds of the waves clashing softly against the rocks. It felt nice and peacful with her around. Unconciously, every single detail, her voice, her reaction to something, every single word she said, he was taking it all in, he wanted to link them together and understand more of her for a reason he couldn't quite find yet.
Time flew by as an hour seemed to be merely minutes, it was time for the movies, so reluctantly Yee Liang walked back into the mall.
Inside the cinema, the unkown feeling once again overwhelmed Yee Liang. In the darkness of the cinema he could see, and nearly feel her hands, it was just an inch away on the arm rest, for a moment the urge to just hold her hand was so strong he had to look away just to get grip of his concious brain again. It was hard to ignore the feeling as he had to whisper when there was something to be said, and once again he felt the brush of her hair against his nose, the smell of her filling his nostrils, as he whispered into her ears. Those feelings were surpressed as it would be wrong to do anything other than what a best friend does.
The movie ended at around 7 30pm, nothing happened. Jocelyn suggested Paddington's Pancake as she said it is really nice, and so they went. It was way past dinner time for her and with empty stomach she was having gastric pains. For some reason, aside from concern Liang's heart felt as though thorns were wrapping around his heart squeezing it. It was hurting and all he wanted to do was just hold her in his arms and somehow take away or at least ease her pain when he looked at her painful expression, wincing as she took her pills.
It did not stop there, once again out of no reason and sense, Liang offered Jocelyn the keys to his car, or was it his heart...he wasn't sure... It surprised him as much as it did to her, he just felt like it would mean something special for him to let her drive the car (it is Liang's sister's mx-5), the delight on her face made him feel even happier.
The night ended as quickly as the day, the date started as both of them got out of their seats and crossed path in front of the car, they hugged each other. A friendly one, but a special one, not planned just a natural reaction by both of them. Jocelyn was in his arms, for that split second the world disappeared, it felt as if the world only contained the two of them.
liang&Jo © ™
Greetings were exchanged, so did the normal questions about how has it been lately, a little about Australia was said and of each other. In no time, familiarity from the old days kicked in and the awkwardness one have when you haven't seen one another for a long time was lifted. The conversation turned into a more relaxed one. Both began having friendly "arguements", lots of laughters as, a little teasing as they started to feel more comfortable in each others presence.
The chatter continued at Queensbay Mall as both of them walked around without a destination, not really looking at shops, instead both were immersed in what each other had to say, enjoying each others company, as a chemistry was struck, at least that was what Yee Liang felt. There was plenty of time left before the movie they had planned to watch begun, so Jocelyn suggested a walk outside as she felt cold. They ended up sitting side by side on the rocks facing the ocean, it was a nice sunny day with cooling wind. Still the topics came pouring in. For a moment Yee Liang's heart fluttered as he looked at her directly and with an observant eye for the first time, was it the closeness and the thing he felt between them the cause of it? Was it the smile she produced with those luscious lips coupled witht he sunshine which made her shone radiantly or was it simply the sea breeze blowing his senses away? He had to pause for a moment to gather himself, hoping Jocelyn didn't notice his reaction or the way he looked at her.
A picture was taken together and Yee Liang suddenly became more concious of himself, "am I dressed alright? I haven't trim my hair, does it look funny? what impression of me did i give?" it was all these questions that came flooding his mind.
Along with the sea, the gulls, the quietness of the surroundings, the calmness of the sea, and of course Jocelyn, he wished that they could just sit there on the rocks where only their voice were played and blended in with the sounds of the waves clashing softly against the rocks. It felt nice and peacful with her around. Unconciously, every single detail, her voice, her reaction to something, every single word she said, he was taking it all in, he wanted to link them together and understand more of her for a reason he couldn't quite find yet.
Time flew by as an hour seemed to be merely minutes, it was time for the movies, so reluctantly Yee Liang walked back into the mall.
Inside the cinema, the unkown feeling once again overwhelmed Yee Liang. In the darkness of the cinema he could see, and nearly feel her hands, it was just an inch away on the arm rest, for a moment the urge to just hold her hand was so strong he had to look away just to get grip of his concious brain again. It was hard to ignore the feeling as he had to whisper when there was something to be said, and once again he felt the brush of her hair against his nose, the smell of her filling his nostrils, as he whispered into her ears. Those feelings were surpressed as it would be wrong to do anything other than what a best friend does.
The movie ended at around 7 30pm, nothing happened. Jocelyn suggested Paddington's Pancake as she said it is really nice, and so they went. It was way past dinner time for her and with empty stomach she was having gastric pains. For some reason, aside from concern Liang's heart felt as though thorns were wrapping around his heart squeezing it. It was hurting and all he wanted to do was just hold her in his arms and somehow take away or at least ease her pain when he looked at her painful expression, wincing as she took her pills.
It did not stop there, once again out of no reason and sense, Liang offered Jocelyn the keys to his car, or was it his heart...he wasn't sure... It surprised him as much as it did to her, he just felt like it would mean something special for him to let her drive the car (it is Liang's sister's mx-5), the delight on her face made him feel even happier.
The night ended as quickly as the day, the date started as both of them got out of their seats and crossed path in front of the car, they hugged each other. A friendly one, but a special one, not planned just a natural reaction by both of them. Jocelyn was in his arms, for that split second the world disappeared, it felt as if the world only contained the two of them.
liang&Jo © ™
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
creepy gnome
justin sent me a site. its about some creepy gnome lurking around the neighborhood.
its really creepy. seriously creepy. i had goosebumps.
click here
it's really creepy. watch the video
its really creepy. seriously creepy. i had goosebumps.
click here
it's really creepy. watch the video
Monday, March 17, 2008
im back to normal...
sorry people! for the negative posts that flooded like the whole screen. there's no need for anybody to read it actually. ish i hate sharing negative stuff. but its a form of escapism for me so... yeah... i had to flood.
u know when u have the mood to blog u have alot of things to talk about. and when u dont have the mood to blog, well even if u have the topic in your head its still useless.
my laptop died again. the charger wasnt working. didnt get to online for like 3 days, and during these 3 days i have alot of things in my head. somehow they disappeared. and the post first post after i get my laptop has to be like this. sigh...
anyway we went to get my laptop 2 days ago. cudnt get it the day before cuz there was a whole big gang of some protest mogok thingy in komtar there. everybody is asking everybody to not go anywhere =.= owwwwkay...
so we went to some workshop in USM for some copywriting advertising thingy. my lecturer asked if i wanna go. figured i'd get ideas there if i wanna major in advertising. went there. everything is lame n useless. since when mass commers are quiet and uncreative and socialize only within their comfort zone and dont even speak english and im like the annoying chatterbox there. @.@ well at least i feel that im one. they have groupings and discussions to come up with ideas on advertisements and we were given 15mins actually. but nobody talked for like, 10 mins. and then they gave us 2 hrs or something. i mean, who needs 2 hrs to come up with some lousy idea?? [sorry =X] and nobody's giving ideas. my group has like 10 people and im the only person giving like 5 different suggestions one shot and all the others are sitting there like statues,
me fi n nic are the only college students there. the others are from USM UUM, what M and dunno what M. paid $10 for it. well at least i got a $20 sloggi voucher. it came with a big shirt for me to wear to sleep. and a nescafe bag. some magazine. nescafe note book, vouchers to some 'nur-what-fa' optometrist. a blue pen. a red pen. a pencil. an origin's sample. a penang indian clothings magazine. okay i shall stop here.
good news is i got myself some freelance work. writing company profiles, doing some designing n editing. didnt start anything yet but, yeah the job opportunity is just laying there askin me to go grab it. yep... doing it for the money and experience.
new movies to add to my list of movies to buy for the movie marathon with cubby is
the water horse, iron man, nim's island, L, kung fu panda, awake, kingdom of freedom, Dr. Suess's Horton hears a who! yep... i'l have to prepare some cucumber and tomato slices for my eyes when cubby's back.
anyway i found out that jovy got 10As for her spm. congrats girl!! but then... sigh.. i shud have studied 2 yrs ago. i cud do better. at least my parents can go "eh u know ar, my daughter got straight A's er" syok lehh.. sorry mom n dad.. i'll get a good job and buy u a car. haha =D luckily im not workin off a 1000+ paycheck =D i'll do way more than that. then u can say to the neighbors "eh eh, my daughter bought me a mercz S-class for my birthday" proud lehhhh. not being materialistic but having alot of money shows success. =D things u cant buy workin in a factory in the hr department. hmmmm
u know when u have the mood to blog u have alot of things to talk about. and when u dont have the mood to blog, well even if u have the topic in your head its still useless.
my laptop died again. the charger wasnt working. didnt get to online for like 3 days, and during these 3 days i have alot of things in my head. somehow they disappeared. and the post first post after i get my laptop has to be like this. sigh...
anyway we went to get my laptop 2 days ago. cudnt get it the day before cuz there was a whole big gang of some protest mogok thingy in komtar there. everybody is asking everybody to not go anywhere =.= owwwwkay...
so we went to some workshop in USM for some copywriting advertising thingy. my lecturer asked if i wanna go. figured i'd get ideas there if i wanna major in advertising. went there. everything is lame n useless. since when mass commers are quiet and uncreative and socialize only within their comfort zone and dont even speak english and im like the annoying chatterbox there. @.@ well at least i feel that im one. they have groupings and discussions to come up with ideas on advertisements and we were given 15mins actually. but nobody talked for like, 10 mins. and then they gave us 2 hrs or something. i mean, who needs 2 hrs to come up with some lousy idea?? [sorry =X] and nobody's giving ideas. my group has like 10 people and im the only person giving like 5 different suggestions one shot and all the others are sitting there like statues,
me fi n nic are the only college students there. the others are from USM UUM, what M and dunno what M. paid $10 for it. well at least i got a $20 sloggi voucher. it came with a big shirt for me to wear to sleep. and a nescafe bag. some magazine. nescafe note book, vouchers to some 'nur-what-fa' optometrist. a blue pen. a red pen. a pencil. an origin's sample. a penang indian clothings magazine. okay i shall stop here.
good news is i got myself some freelance work. writing company profiles, doing some designing n editing. didnt start anything yet but, yeah the job opportunity is just laying there askin me to go grab it. yep... doing it for the money and experience.
new movies to add to my list of movies to buy for the movie marathon with cubby is
the water horse, iron man, nim's island, L, kung fu panda, awake, kingdom of freedom, Dr. Suess's Horton hears a who! yep... i'l have to prepare some cucumber and tomato slices for my eyes when cubby's back.
anyway i found out that jovy got 10As for her spm. congrats girl!! but then... sigh.. i shud have studied 2 yrs ago. i cud do better. at least my parents can go "eh u know ar, my daughter got straight A's er" syok lehh.. sorry mom n dad.. i'll get a good job and buy u a car. haha =D luckily im not workin off a 1000+ paycheck =D i'll do way more than that. then u can say to the neighbors "eh eh, my daughter bought me a mercz S-class for my birthday" proud lehhhh. not being materialistic but having alot of money shows success. =D things u cant buy workin in a factory in the hr department. hmmmm
Sunday, March 16, 2008
im not done yet
grow up lah please. you're so childish that when relatives say "hey your younger sis is growing tall, she's now taller than u already"
and u go "no lahhh where got" with that no-way-ur-going-to-win-this face. then u stand upright, not slouching and stick ur chest as far as possible just to show that you're taller. please lah. i've got so so sooo many friends that their younger sister is taller. its like, so what? its in the genes. like this also u wanna fight? puh-leeeez... all the sisters in the whole world shud argue everyday just cause the younger one cant stop herself from getting taller. its like so childish. i dont care even if my younger sis is taller. its just normal and u just wanna fight over things like that. whats the big deal?? what's wrong with u???
all u want is to win. since when sisters get competitive? since i had a sister with the brain of the size of a guppy.
u have this locked cupboard in your room. hmm i dont think its big enough for u to keep everything in. u keep everything inside just cause u donwan me to take to use ma. i know. u even keep sanitary pads inside. the other day everybody went kl. u mom n dad. n it was my period day and im out of pads. then what? i smsed u to ask n see if u got or not. yeah.. u have those pads. its in the locked cupboard and the keys are with u in kl ma.. luckily i was going out with liang that night and we were stil friends and do u know how pai seh i was to go sanitary pad shoppin with a guy friend??? no u dont know. u dont even care do u?
you're so selfish and self-obsessed that u even picked out the spoons at home. 'this spoon is mine dont use it" even grandma uses it n u go ballistic. its like what the hell??? wash it afterwards lahhhh.
the other day we were arguing months ago and u told dad "hey im not the one who was caught shoplifting!" well for ur information, the first time i shop lifted, u taught me to. it was in kl u took a few pins frm a stall and i followed. afta that it has been a habit for me. all thanks to u. and i kept quiet all along. looks like i shud have told mom and dad like 8 years ago.
and afta i got into an accident and made a dent in the myvi, mom asked u to call the repair guy to arrange a date to fix the car n u went "why ask me to call!! im not the one who made the c ar this way!" 1. ur friend's dad works as the car repairman that we are about to call. 2. fine give me the damn number n i'll call him myself. wait u didnt gv me how to cal? maybe i shud go korek it out from your hp and risk getting screams from u about not-touching-your-stuff, just so u wont have to call. 3. u think i wanna get into that damn accident and waste a few hundred bucks? i think ur mind works that way. selfish self-centered.
if u wanna fight that way, well ur the one who doesnt have high cholesterol and doesnt hav to feed on cholesterol drugs to survive. ur the one who is fat and not stick skinny and is healthy all the way. you're not the one who got hospitalized so many times since birth. you're the one with a pretty face and a perfectly normal lower jaw and big boobs and plus, you're fat! you're the one with the perfect bf (well boo to u i got myself someone better now) and you're not the one who gets sick and make frequent visits to the clinic. you're not the one with asthma or whatever it is that makes my face hands n legs go numb. look you're life is perfect what do u want from me? if i wanna borrow anything from u, its cuz u have it n i dont. why the hell wud i wanna use your things if i already have my own? guppy brain. and when u use my stuff, well i keep quiet. its about time i stand up for myself and yeah things got worse. maybe liang's right. one of us should move out. maybe she will notice the absence of me one day and realize that im gone. what will happen then?
1. she will be happy she doesnt have to see my face anymore, she can have everything she wants. she doenst have to lock up her stuff. she's happy. thats good.
if not? 2. she will miss me. yeah and pig brains can fly.
"i dont need her!" well of course u dont, u only need calvin. cuz ur salary is $1000+ out of degree. and its the qian jin xiao jie's first job. hmmm... im pretty sure and confident that my FORTH job will earn more than that. within a year i can take care of mom and dad and u?
"my colleague earns 1000+ a mnth and her mom pays for her car, her rent, her food and all she spend on is nothing but shopping. so syok" oh so u wanna be like that. what a daughter. mroe reasons for me to go to aust or anywher else to get my degree just so i can take care of mom and dad. ur unreliable.
btw, u shud go and get a job as a private investigator. im really impressed how u found out that i used your pc for like 15mins. hmm... really really impressed. i kept everything as clean as possible. the photos as evidence? they were there since uncle sing's trip here. i cud have lied all the way and not admit that i used your pc. still, im still impressed. u really should be some CSI detective. u'd earn so much more, enough for u to go shopping everyday.
the only clothes of yours that im allowed to wear is what? clothes that u no longer want them anymre. hand me downs. i dont really mind. i have been wearing them since im a baby. but the ting that pisses me off is that im not allowed to share your clothes. only allowed certain clothes which after that i realize, after i wore them once u dont want them anymore. what do u think i m? charity? its like those that u dont want, and u treat it as rubbish, then only u give them to me. u use the word share. ur just sharing ur clothes with me. yeah right. bullshit. all ended up in my closet n mom n dad goes "u got so many clothes to wear already" when half of them is ur rubbish. i barely buy clothes. these few years only i start buying more because i realize that u were giving me rubbish all along. thanks, i appreciate your LOVING N KINDNESS but no thanks.
saying that what i wear isnt nice. i wear this n this is ugly. maybe i shud wear like u. nothing but long jeans and a shirt or singlet or spaghettis with a belt n heels. and thats it. thats all u wear everyday. stay safe huh? that doesnt earn u a privilege of being able to critic me. so just shut up unless your dressing taste is better than mine.
tak syok cause i get to drive the new car? well its just a myvi i tot u hated small sized cars. now u got the persona, i dont even care if i don get to drive a new car. its just a damn car what to fuss about? now im beginning to think that dad bought the persona just to shut u up. maybe, maybe not. u get to drive wat, u drive to work only ma. drive out at 9. park under the sun the whole day til 5 then u drive home. so u drive new car mom drive old car la izit?yeah i think it works that way selfish guppy brain. now u get to drive the new persona to work n park under the sun while mom drives an older car. hmm...
"y does she get to use this/do this/ go there when i dont get to do it when i was at her age!"
if u wanna argue about that, well i dont get as much freedom as u do when u were at my age.
mom always gets ballistic and dont let me drive the car when u get to, when u were at my age.
u wanna dye ur hair n mom goes hair-dye shopping with u. just cause u say u got white hair? i've got loads of them too! and when i say i wanna dye my hair, mom says "dont dye already u dyed last time. dont keep dying your hair" last time is like 2 yrs ago? the black hair came out from the roots and they have reached like my ears already.the last time u dyed? half a year ago. the last time my parents dyed? last month. they've got more white hair i know. but her? pfftt...
u go clubbing when u were at my age. n mom says, becareful. me? mom says no way, dont go. u wanna go i bring u there. like what the hell! if u wanna fight for fairness n equality, i've got so much to say that blogging is actually useless. u get to go to hotel stays. do i? once in a while.
when the both of us buy a new shirt at the same time, mom comes over n say "wat did u buy? let me see" cause she doesnt trust my taste!!! she wanna see what i bought then nag me about it, she doesnt even care what u buy! then if we both drove out alone. at 9pm mom n dad keeps callin me askin me to go home. then calls at 10pm. then a 11. then at midnight. u? u get the freedom that i dont. happy now? u got their trust n im just one of their worrying baby girl that will never grow up and will never let me go even if im like what? 20 yrs old? "20 n u think ur an adult d ar?" technically yes. thats what the dictionary says isnt it? yeah welcome to my life.
all these complains i've been keeping it to me for years. i kept quiet. not complaining at home doesnt mean i dont have anything to complain about. well now? the balloon burst. hooray to me. i wanna move out.
and u go "no lahhh where got" with that no-way-ur-going-to-win-this face. then u stand upright, not slouching and stick ur chest as far as possible just to show that you're taller. please lah. i've got so so sooo many friends that their younger sister is taller. its like, so what? its in the genes. like this also u wanna fight? puh-leeeez... all the sisters in the whole world shud argue everyday just cause the younger one cant stop herself from getting taller. its like so childish. i dont care even if my younger sis is taller. its just normal and u just wanna fight over things like that. whats the big deal?? what's wrong with u???
all u want is to win. since when sisters get competitive? since i had a sister with the brain of the size of a guppy.
u have this locked cupboard in your room. hmm i dont think its big enough for u to keep everything in. u keep everything inside just cause u donwan me to take to use ma. i know. u even keep sanitary pads inside. the other day everybody went kl. u mom n dad. n it was my period day and im out of pads. then what? i smsed u to ask n see if u got or not. yeah.. u have those pads. its in the locked cupboard and the keys are with u in kl ma.. luckily i was going out with liang that night and we were stil friends and do u know how pai seh i was to go sanitary pad shoppin with a guy friend??? no u dont know. u dont even care do u?
you're so selfish and self-obsessed that u even picked out the spoons at home. 'this spoon is mine dont use it" even grandma uses it n u go ballistic. its like what the hell??? wash it afterwards lahhhh.
the other day we were arguing months ago and u told dad "hey im not the one who was caught shoplifting!" well for ur information, the first time i shop lifted, u taught me to. it was in kl u took a few pins frm a stall and i followed. afta that it has been a habit for me. all thanks to u. and i kept quiet all along. looks like i shud have told mom and dad like 8 years ago.
and afta i got into an accident and made a dent in the myvi, mom asked u to call the repair guy to arrange a date to fix the car n u went "why ask me to call!! im not the one who made the c ar this way!" 1. ur friend's dad works as the car repairman that we are about to call. 2. fine give me the damn number n i'll call him myself. wait u didnt gv me how to cal? maybe i shud go korek it out from your hp and risk getting screams from u about not-touching-your-stuff, just so u wont have to call. 3. u think i wanna get into that damn accident and waste a few hundred bucks? i think ur mind works that way. selfish self-centered.
if u wanna fight that way, well ur the one who doesnt have high cholesterol and doesnt hav to feed on cholesterol drugs to survive. ur the one who is fat and not stick skinny and is healthy all the way. you're not the one who got hospitalized so many times since birth. you're the one with a pretty face and a perfectly normal lower jaw and big boobs and plus, you're fat! you're the one with the perfect bf (well boo to u i got myself someone better now) and you're not the one who gets sick and make frequent visits to the clinic. you're not the one with asthma or whatever it is that makes my face hands n legs go numb. look you're life is perfect what do u want from me? if i wanna borrow anything from u, its cuz u have it n i dont. why the hell wud i wanna use your things if i already have my own? guppy brain. and when u use my stuff, well i keep quiet. its about time i stand up for myself and yeah things got worse. maybe liang's right. one of us should move out. maybe she will notice the absence of me one day and realize that im gone. what will happen then?
1. she will be happy she doesnt have to see my face anymore, she can have everything she wants. she doenst have to lock up her stuff. she's happy. thats good.
if not? 2. she will miss me. yeah and pig brains can fly.
"i dont need her!" well of course u dont, u only need calvin. cuz ur salary is $1000+ out of degree. and its the qian jin xiao jie's first job. hmmm... im pretty sure and confident that my FORTH job will earn more than that. within a year i can take care of mom and dad and u?
"my colleague earns 1000+ a mnth and her mom pays for her car, her rent, her food and all she spend on is nothing but shopping. so syok" oh so u wanna be like that. what a daughter. mroe reasons for me to go to aust or anywher else to get my degree just so i can take care of mom and dad. ur unreliable.
btw, u shud go and get a job as a private investigator. im really impressed how u found out that i used your pc for like 15mins. hmm... really really impressed. i kept everything as clean as possible. the photos as evidence? they were there since uncle sing's trip here. i cud have lied all the way and not admit that i used your pc. still, im still impressed. u really should be some CSI detective. u'd earn so much more, enough for u to go shopping everyday.
the only clothes of yours that im allowed to wear is what? clothes that u no longer want them anymre. hand me downs. i dont really mind. i have been wearing them since im a baby. but the ting that pisses me off is that im not allowed to share your clothes. only allowed certain clothes which after that i realize, after i wore them once u dont want them anymore. what do u think i m? charity? its like those that u dont want, and u treat it as rubbish, then only u give them to me. u use the word share. ur just sharing ur clothes with me. yeah right. bullshit. all ended up in my closet n mom n dad goes "u got so many clothes to wear already" when half of them is ur rubbish. i barely buy clothes. these few years only i start buying more because i realize that u were giving me rubbish all along. thanks, i appreciate your LOVING N KINDNESS but no thanks.
saying that what i wear isnt nice. i wear this n this is ugly. maybe i shud wear like u. nothing but long jeans and a shirt or singlet or spaghettis with a belt n heels. and thats it. thats all u wear everyday. stay safe huh? that doesnt earn u a privilege of being able to critic me. so just shut up unless your dressing taste is better than mine.
tak syok cause i get to drive the new car? well its just a myvi i tot u hated small sized cars. now u got the persona, i dont even care if i don get to drive a new car. its just a damn car what to fuss about? now im beginning to think that dad bought the persona just to shut u up. maybe, maybe not. u get to drive wat, u drive to work only ma. drive out at 9. park under the sun the whole day til 5 then u drive home. so u drive new car mom drive old car la izit?yeah i think it works that way selfish guppy brain. now u get to drive the new persona to work n park under the sun while mom drives an older car. hmm...
"y does she get to use this/do this/ go there when i dont get to do it when i was at her age!"
if u wanna argue about that, well i dont get as much freedom as u do when u were at my age.
mom always gets ballistic and dont let me drive the car when u get to, when u were at my age.
u wanna dye ur hair n mom goes hair-dye shopping with u. just cause u say u got white hair? i've got loads of them too! and when i say i wanna dye my hair, mom says "dont dye already u dyed last time. dont keep dying your hair" last time is like 2 yrs ago? the black hair came out from the roots and they have reached like my ears already.the last time u dyed? half a year ago. the last time my parents dyed? last month. they've got more white hair i know. but her? pfftt...
u go clubbing when u were at my age. n mom says, becareful. me? mom says no way, dont go. u wanna go i bring u there. like what the hell! if u wanna fight for fairness n equality, i've got so much to say that blogging is actually useless. u get to go to hotel stays. do i? once in a while.
when the both of us buy a new shirt at the same time, mom comes over n say "wat did u buy? let me see" cause she doesnt trust my taste!!! she wanna see what i bought then nag me about it, she doesnt even care what u buy! then if we both drove out alone. at 9pm mom n dad keeps callin me askin me to go home. then calls at 10pm. then a 11. then at midnight. u? u get the freedom that i dont. happy now? u got their trust n im just one of their worrying baby girl that will never grow up and will never let me go even if im like what? 20 yrs old? "20 n u think ur an adult d ar?" technically yes. thats what the dictionary says isnt it? yeah welcome to my life.
all these complains i've been keeping it to me for years. i kept quiet. not complaining at home doesnt mean i dont have anything to complain about. well now? the balloon burst. hooray to me. i wanna move out.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Somewhere over the rainbow
Have you guys heard of this song sang by Katherine Mcphee, it was awesome the one at the idol and also at JC Penney Jam Concert For Kids in Los Agneles.
How bout Connie Talbot, some 6 year old British kid who sings the song really really well too.
Go search on youtube, if you guys haven't seen it before.
"Somewhere over the rainbow....Bluebirds flyBirds fly over the rainbow.....Why then, oh why can't I? " a small part of the lyrics....
I wish i could fly too across the Pacific Ocean back and forth so that i'll be there to clear away the hardship and teardrops.....
This song.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....*da ones that put you to slumber* Hahaha.....
Just wanted to share a little good song with nice vocals, the one by the kid, awesome.
How bout Connie Talbot, some 6 year old British kid who sings the song really really well too.
Go search on youtube, if you guys haven't seen it before.
"Somewhere over the rainbow....Bluebirds flyBirds fly over the rainbow.....Why then, oh why can't I? " a small part of the lyrics....
I wish i could fly too across the Pacific Ocean back and forth so that i'll be there to clear away the hardship and teardrops.....
This song.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....*da ones that put you to slumber* Hahaha.....
Just wanted to share a little good song with nice vocals, the one by the kid, awesome.
i consider myself an only child
U KNOW WHAT? I DONT THINK IM WRONG. I MAY BE WRONG TO USE UR PC WITHOUT UR PERMISSION BUT U KNOW WHAT? ITS BECAUSE U MADE ME THAT WAY.
I DONT EVEN RMB THE LAST TIME WE ACTUALLY TALKED OR EVEN HUNG OUT TOGETHER. IT HURTS WHEN FRIENDS CARE MORE THAN SISTERS DO. WHEN A BF DOES THAT, U CAN JUST LET GO AND FIND A NEW ONE. BUT JUST BECAUSE THAT BITCH IS BLOOD RELATED, WELL THERE'S NOTHING THAT I CAN DO.
SAYING THAT THE REASON U FOUND OUT IF CUZ THERE ARE MY PICTURES IN THERE? WELL UR SO STUPID YOUR BRAIN IS MADE OUT OF SHIT. THE PICTURES WERE THERE SINCE UNCLE SING WAS HERE. HE WANTED TO SEE MY PHOTOGRAPHY SKILLS AND SOME PICTURES THAT I TOOK. JEALOUS ARENT U? THAT I KNOW HOW TO TAKE ICTURES AND U DONT. WELL YOU'RE NEVER SATISFIED. YES THAT'S A STATEMENT AND A FACT. SINCE IM YOUNG, NOTHING I DO MEETS YOUR EYE.
I STILL REMEMBER IN PRIMARY SCHOOL, WHEN U WON SOME WRITING COMPETITION AND I WAS HAPPY FOR U. U WROTE THE ESSAY N U WON IT N U DESERVE IT. FAIR ISNT IT? I NEVER WON ANYTHING. U'VE GOT EVERYTHING U WANT SINCE YOUNG. WHAT THE HELL DO U WANT FROM ME? AND WHEN I WON SOMETHING THAT I DESERVE, NOT OUT OF LUCK, U GO "CHEH I OSO CAN LAH"
AND NOW UR SAYING THAT I USE UR THINGS, TOUCH UR THINGS N ALL WITHOUT UR PERMISSION? WELL JUST A FEW DAYS AGO JUST MINUTES AFTA I REACHED HOME, I SAW CALVIN TAKE OUT A DVD N PUT IN ON THE CUPBOARD OUTSIDE MY BEDROOM. N THAT MOVIE, WAS THE WARLORDS. N THE MOVIE WAS MINE. NO WAIT, IT WAS LIANG'S. AND I JUST ACTED DUMB. U WATCHED MY BF'S MOVIE WITHOUT ASKIN ME, AND UR FUSSING ABT IT WHEN I DIDNT EVEN DARE TO TOUCH CALVIN'S DVD OF HEROES ON THE TABLE LAST YR. OR WAIT, U DIDNT LEAVE IT ON THE TABLE, U KEPT IT AFTA U WATCH EACH EPISOD CUZ U DIDNT WANT ME TO TOUCH IT RIGHT? HMM.. AND IS ASK IF U CUD BORROW ME CUZ I WANTED TO WATCH AND U SAID WHAT AGAIN? "ASK CALVIN URSELF" WITHOUT EVEN LOOKIN AT ME. OH SO I CAN SPOIL SOME PIRATED DVDS DATS Y U DIN WAN TO BORROW ME? U'D SAY U WANNA BORROW WAT, ASK ME TO ASK CALVIN ONLY MA. BULLSHIT. I SHUD ASK U TO CALL ALL THE WAY TO AUST URSELF IF U WANNA WATCH WARLORDS.
THEN U GOT A NEW HP. A NEW PINK SLIDE HP FRM SONY ERICSON.
"OH COOL... LET ME SEE"
"DONT TOUCH MY THINGS!!!" SHE SNAPPED
2 YRS AGO I GOT MY NEW SONY ERICSON W80O. I JZ GOT HOME, DIDNT EVEN CHARGE IT OR ANYTHING. U WERE IN THE ROOM WITH CALVIN N U ASKED ME TO LET U SEE THE NEW HP. OKAY SURE ITS JUST A NEW HP U NVR KNEW THE FUNCTION U WANNA HAVE A LOOK, SURE Y NOT. CALVIN WAS THERE TOGETHER WITH U, HE WANTED TO SEE IT TOO, U GUYS EVEN PLAYED THE GAMES INSIDE. AND SO? I DONT MIND. NOW UR GIVING ME THE EXCUSE SAYING THAT I CANT HAVE A LOOK AT UR HP CUZ U JZ BOUGHT IT N THE BATT WAS LOW N U HAD TO GO OUT D. BULLSHIT U JUST DIDNT WANT ME TO TOUCH UR THINGS CUZ I CUD SPOIL A NEWLY BOUGHT SONY ERICSON WIHTHIN 2 SECS. WELL BEING A SISTER U CUD SAY "OH NO BATT D... I CHARGE D TMR ONLY LET U SEE LA" INSTEAD, IT WAS A PERMENANT STATEMENT. NO WAY DONT TOUCH.
THEN CALVIN TOLD ME, "ACTUALLY UR SIS VERY SAYANG U ONE, SHE BOUGHT U A NEW USB MP3 PLAYER THING THAT U CAN PLAY IN THE CAR" WELL YEAH SHE DID BUY ME ONE. IT WAS BLACK IN COLOR. THEN I FOUND OUT SHE HAS ONE IN HER CAR TOO. IT WAS WHITE. THEN GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT NEXT? SHE WANTED TO BARGAIN FOR A CHEAPER PRICE AND THE SHOPKEEPER WUDNT LET SO SHE BOUGHT 2 SO SHE CUD GET A CHEAPER PRICE FOR IT. AND SHE GAVE ME THE UGLIER COLORED ONE, WHICH IS THE BLACK ONE AND BOUGHT DIFF COLOR SO SHE KNOW BLACK IS MINE WHITE IS HERS, "DONT TOUCH THE WHITE ONE ITS MINE" I DIDNT EVEN ASK HER TO BUY. I DONT EVEN NEED THE THING. IF ITS NOT FOR A CHEAPER PRICE U WONT BUY FOR ME OSO LA ISNT IT? BUYING THAT FOR ME MEANS SAYANG ME? WHAT A MATERIALISTIC BITCH. I KNOW UR WORKING NOW. GOT MONEY D MA. AT FOREVER 21 I WANTED A NECKLACE WORTH $ 29 U WUDNT BUY FOR ME. SAY I ALWYS USE UR MONEY WHICH I DIDNT OSO. INSTEAD U R SOOOO GOOD U'D BUY ME SOMETHING MORE EXPENSIVE? DOESNT MAKE SENSE DOES IT? BUYING THINGS FOR ME MEANS SAYANG ME, Y NOT I'L JUST SLAP HER FACE N GV HER A TIFF& CO? THIS APPROACH IS USELESS ISNT IT? ALL I WANT IS A LESS RUDER SISTER WITH A BETTER PERSONALITY N ATTITUDE. SOMETHING U CANT BUY WITH MONEY CAN U?
NOW U JUST GOT BACK FROM WHER AGAIN? I DONT EVEN KNOW, WE NVR TALK. AND MOM SAID U BOUGHT SOMETHING FOR ME. HMM... MUST BE SOMETHING U BOUGHT THAT BENEFITS U THATS Y U BOUGHT FOR ME RIGHT? WELL I DONT WANT IT. NGO MM HEI HON.
ASK ME TO USE MY OWN LAPTOP IF I NEED TO ONLINE. LIKE DUH OF COURSE I'D USE MINE Y DO I EVEN BOTHER TO USE URS IF I GET TO USE MINE??? UR SO STUPID U THINK I'D USE URS JUST TO GET TO ARGUE WITH U N TAKE THAT RISK? THATS PLAIN STUPID-NESS. SAY I SHUD USE MY DAD'S LAPTOP THEN. I DID USE HIS LAPTOP. IT WAS LATE AT NIGHT DAD'S ASEELP. SO I SHUD WAKE MY DAD UP, SACRIFICE HIS SLP WHEN I CUD USE URS. WHAT A DAUGHTER. UR NOT AT HOME ANYWAY. SO IF I CANT BORROW IT FRM MY DAD, N ITS LIKE 11PM, I SHUD DRIVE OUT TO MY FRIEND'S HOUSE N USE THEIR COMPUTER. USE UR BRAIN LAH ITS LATE U THINK MOM N DAD WUD LET ME DRIVE OUT ALONE JUST TO ONLINE FOR 10MINS. N THE REASON THEY DONT LET ME GO OUT LATE AT NIGHT IS CAUSE ITS LATE N ITS A FRIDAY THERE MAYBE STREET RASCALS N MAT REMPITS. SO I SHUD RISK MY LIFE TO GO OUT WHEN THERE IS A COMPUTER RIGHT NEXT TO MY ROOM. SO UC AN LET UNCLE SING N AUNT USE UR PC FOR SO MANY DAYS N WILLING TO BRING IT OUT TO THE LIVING ROOM AND NOT LET A SISTER USE? HMM... MORE REASONS TO ELIMINATE ANY RELATIONSHIPS WITH U. U LISTEN N U LISTEN GOOD. I DONT HAVE A SISTER AND THE ONLY THING WE ARE RELATED TO IS OUR DNAs N THATS IT. OTHER THAN THAT, I DONT KNOW U.
IF I ASKED I WUDNT ET TO USE IT. IF I DONT ASK, I DONT GET TO USE IT EITHER. IF I ASKED, WE'D ARGUE, IF I DIN ASK WE'D ARGUE AFTA U FIND OUT. SO I THINK THE SAFER ROUTE IS TO RISK U FINDING OUT N USE IT CUZ I NEED TO USE IT. ASK N DONT ASK OSO SAME, Y BOTHER ASKIN? UR JUST SAYING "USE MY THINGS NONIT TO ASK ME ONE IZIT!!??" THAT'S JUST AN EXCUSE ISNT IT. WHATEVER I SAY U JUST DONT ACCEPT ONLY.
EVEN IF IM SICK U'D MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF IT JUST CUZ ITS MY TURN TO SHOWER THE DOG AND U GO COMPLAIN TO MOM N SHOW UR STUPID FACE N WHINE N COMPLAIN THAT ITS SUPPOSE TO BE MY TURN TO SHOWER THE DOG. WELL IM ON FEVER, I'VE GOT A SWOLLEN THROAT AND MY HEAD FEELS LIKE I HAVE A SCREW IN IT. I'D SHOWER THE DOG IF UR SICK. U WUDNT. I'D SHOWER THE DOG THE NEXT WHOLE MONTH IF U SHOWER HER TODAY. BUT NOOOOO U DONT THINK THAT WAY. U DONT CARE ABOUT ME. IF IM SICK ITS MY OWN PROBLEM CAUSE ITS SUPPOSE TO BE MY TURN. ITS JUST A GOD DAMN SHOWER THE DOG CHORE WHICH DIDNT EVEN TAKE 15MINS.
U COUNT EVERYTHING WITH ME!!!
"ITS SUPPOSE TO B HER TURN TO DO THE DISHES!!!"
"I MOPPED THE FLOOR LAST WEEK ALREADY!"
"GET OUT OF THE ROOM I NEED TO SLEEP ALREADY, U ONLINE WITH UR LAPTOP LIGHT AND THE TYPING IS TOO NOISY I NEED TO SLEEP"
"DONT TOUCH MY CLOTHES"
"DONT TOUCH MY BAGS"
"WHO ATE MY CAKE ON THE TABLE!!! MUST BE U!"
AND U JUST SCREAM THE WHOLE HOUSE IF U KNOW IT WAS ME WHO DID SOMETHING THAT U ARE JUST TAK SYOK ABOUT.
2 YRS AGO U USED A BAD WORD ON ME. U USED IT ON ME FIRST. I DONT CARE EVEN IF I USE ANY BAD WORDS ON U CAUSE IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE. A BITCH DESERVES TO BE CALLED A BITCH.
FOR UR INFORMATION I DIDNT SPOIL YOUR STUFF. U BORROWED ME A SPOILED MEMORY CARD READER N CLAIMED THAT I SPOILED IT. WELL MY CAMERA USES AN SD CARD. N BY USING THAT PORT, IT SPOILED THE MEMORY CARD SLOT THAT READS UR HP'S TINY MEMORY CARD. WOW. N SO I FIGURED IT WAS MY FAULT, I WENT TO THE PC FAIR N BOUGHT HER A NEW ONE THE VERY NEXT WEEK. NOTHING SATISFIES HER . NOTHING AT ALL. NOTHING CAN MAKE HER SATISFIED UNLESS IM DEAD.
SOMETIMES I THINK, WHAT MADE US THIS WAY? MUST ME SOMETHING I DID THEN. AND TO PREVENT ANYTHING FROM HAPPENING I'L JUST NOT TOUCH UR THINGS AT ALL N NOT TREAT U AS A SISTER. I TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY THEY TREATED ME. ALL ALONG U TREATED ME LIKE SHIT. I'VE BEEN ABLE TO HOLD DOWN AND JUST KEEP QUIET. NOW IM STANDING UP FOR MYSELF N IT GOT WORSE. GUESS THE ONLY SOLUTION IS TO CUT THE SISTER LINE.
U KNOW WHAT? SCREW IT. SCREW EVERYTHING!! I DONT HAVE A SISTER. MAKES ME FEEL BETTER NOT HAVING ONE
U MADE ME THIS WAY. FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS. NO WAIT, SINCE MNTHS AGO, I HAVE CONDSIDERED MYSELF A SINGLE CHILD. BUT FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS, IF PEOPLE ASK IF I GOT ANY SIBLINGS, I'L JUST SAY IM THE ONLY CHILD.
80% OF MY BRAIN TELLS ME TO RUN AWAY FROM HOME NOW. JUST SO I WONT SEE HER FUCK FACE. I DONT CARE NOW EVEN IF I CUDNT AFFORD TO GO OUT OF MALAYSIA TO STUDY, IM STIL GOING TO KL. I DONT CARE. I JUST DONT WANNA B HOME. I WISH SHE'D FASTER GET MARRIED WITH CALVIN N IT WUD B HIS PROBLEM TO SETTLE HER NOW. NOT MINE. AND I DONT HAVE TO SEE HER FACE ANYMORE AND MY LIFE WOULD BE HAPPIER.
AND AFTER I GRADUATE FROM DEGREE, IM MOVING OUT RIGHT AFTA I GET MY FIRST PAY CHECK. EVEN IF IM WORKING IN PENANG, IM MOVING OUT.
I DONT EVEN RMB THE LAST TIME WE ACTUALLY TALKED OR EVEN HUNG OUT TOGETHER. IT HURTS WHEN FRIENDS CARE MORE THAN SISTERS DO. WHEN A BF DOES THAT, U CAN JUST LET GO AND FIND A NEW ONE. BUT JUST BECAUSE THAT BITCH IS BLOOD RELATED, WELL THERE'S NOTHING THAT I CAN DO.
SAYING THAT THE REASON U FOUND OUT IF CUZ THERE ARE MY PICTURES IN THERE? WELL UR SO STUPID YOUR BRAIN IS MADE OUT OF SHIT. THE PICTURES WERE THERE SINCE UNCLE SING WAS HERE. HE WANTED TO SEE MY PHOTOGRAPHY SKILLS AND SOME PICTURES THAT I TOOK. JEALOUS ARENT U? THAT I KNOW HOW TO TAKE ICTURES AND U DONT. WELL YOU'RE NEVER SATISFIED. YES THAT'S A STATEMENT AND A FACT. SINCE IM YOUNG, NOTHING I DO MEETS YOUR EYE.
I STILL REMEMBER IN PRIMARY SCHOOL, WHEN U WON SOME WRITING COMPETITION AND I WAS HAPPY FOR U. U WROTE THE ESSAY N U WON IT N U DESERVE IT. FAIR ISNT IT? I NEVER WON ANYTHING. U'VE GOT EVERYTHING U WANT SINCE YOUNG. WHAT THE HELL DO U WANT FROM ME? AND WHEN I WON SOMETHING THAT I DESERVE, NOT OUT OF LUCK, U GO "CHEH I OSO CAN LAH"
AND NOW UR SAYING THAT I USE UR THINGS, TOUCH UR THINGS N ALL WITHOUT UR PERMISSION? WELL JUST A FEW DAYS AGO JUST MINUTES AFTA I REACHED HOME, I SAW CALVIN TAKE OUT A DVD N PUT IN ON THE CUPBOARD OUTSIDE MY BEDROOM. N THAT MOVIE, WAS THE WARLORDS. N THE MOVIE WAS MINE. NO WAIT, IT WAS LIANG'S. AND I JUST ACTED DUMB. U WATCHED MY BF'S MOVIE WITHOUT ASKIN ME, AND UR FUSSING ABT IT WHEN I DIDNT EVEN DARE TO TOUCH CALVIN'S DVD OF HEROES ON THE TABLE LAST YR. OR WAIT, U DIDNT LEAVE IT ON THE TABLE, U KEPT IT AFTA U WATCH EACH EPISOD CUZ U DIDNT WANT ME TO TOUCH IT RIGHT? HMM.. AND IS ASK IF U CUD BORROW ME CUZ I WANTED TO WATCH AND U SAID WHAT AGAIN? "ASK CALVIN URSELF" WITHOUT EVEN LOOKIN AT ME. OH SO I CAN SPOIL SOME PIRATED DVDS DATS Y U DIN WAN TO BORROW ME? U'D SAY U WANNA BORROW WAT, ASK ME TO ASK CALVIN ONLY MA. BULLSHIT. I SHUD ASK U TO CALL ALL THE WAY TO AUST URSELF IF U WANNA WATCH WARLORDS.
THEN U GOT A NEW HP. A NEW PINK SLIDE HP FRM SONY ERICSON.
"OH COOL... LET ME SEE"
"DONT TOUCH MY THINGS!!!" SHE SNAPPED
2 YRS AGO I GOT MY NEW SONY ERICSON W80O. I JZ GOT HOME, DIDNT EVEN CHARGE IT OR ANYTHING. U WERE IN THE ROOM WITH CALVIN N U ASKED ME TO LET U SEE THE NEW HP. OKAY SURE ITS JUST A NEW HP U NVR KNEW THE FUNCTION U WANNA HAVE A LOOK, SURE Y NOT. CALVIN WAS THERE TOGETHER WITH U, HE WANTED TO SEE IT TOO, U GUYS EVEN PLAYED THE GAMES INSIDE. AND SO? I DONT MIND. NOW UR GIVING ME THE EXCUSE SAYING THAT I CANT HAVE A LOOK AT UR HP CUZ U JZ BOUGHT IT N THE BATT WAS LOW N U HAD TO GO OUT D. BULLSHIT U JUST DIDNT WANT ME TO TOUCH UR THINGS CUZ I CUD SPOIL A NEWLY BOUGHT SONY ERICSON WIHTHIN 2 SECS. WELL BEING A SISTER U CUD SAY "OH NO BATT D... I CHARGE D TMR ONLY LET U SEE LA" INSTEAD, IT WAS A PERMENANT STATEMENT. NO WAY DONT TOUCH.
THEN CALVIN TOLD ME, "ACTUALLY UR SIS VERY SAYANG U ONE, SHE BOUGHT U A NEW USB MP3 PLAYER THING THAT U CAN PLAY IN THE CAR" WELL YEAH SHE DID BUY ME ONE. IT WAS BLACK IN COLOR. THEN I FOUND OUT SHE HAS ONE IN HER CAR TOO. IT WAS WHITE. THEN GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT NEXT? SHE WANTED TO BARGAIN FOR A CHEAPER PRICE AND THE SHOPKEEPER WUDNT LET SO SHE BOUGHT 2 SO SHE CUD GET A CHEAPER PRICE FOR IT. AND SHE GAVE ME THE UGLIER COLORED ONE, WHICH IS THE BLACK ONE AND BOUGHT DIFF COLOR SO SHE KNOW BLACK IS MINE WHITE IS HERS, "DONT TOUCH THE WHITE ONE ITS MINE" I DIDNT EVEN ASK HER TO BUY. I DONT EVEN NEED THE THING. IF ITS NOT FOR A CHEAPER PRICE U WONT BUY FOR ME OSO LA ISNT IT? BUYING THAT FOR ME MEANS SAYANG ME? WHAT A MATERIALISTIC BITCH. I KNOW UR WORKING NOW. GOT MONEY D MA. AT FOREVER 21 I WANTED A NECKLACE WORTH $ 29 U WUDNT BUY FOR ME. SAY I ALWYS USE UR MONEY WHICH I DIDNT OSO. INSTEAD U R SOOOO GOOD U'D BUY ME SOMETHING MORE EXPENSIVE? DOESNT MAKE SENSE DOES IT? BUYING THINGS FOR ME MEANS SAYANG ME, Y NOT I'L JUST SLAP HER FACE N GV HER A TIFF& CO? THIS APPROACH IS USELESS ISNT IT? ALL I WANT IS A LESS RUDER SISTER WITH A BETTER PERSONALITY N ATTITUDE. SOMETHING U CANT BUY WITH MONEY CAN U?
NOW U JUST GOT BACK FROM WHER AGAIN? I DONT EVEN KNOW, WE NVR TALK. AND MOM SAID U BOUGHT SOMETHING FOR ME. HMM... MUST BE SOMETHING U BOUGHT THAT BENEFITS U THATS Y U BOUGHT FOR ME RIGHT? WELL I DONT WANT IT. NGO MM HEI HON.
ASK ME TO USE MY OWN LAPTOP IF I NEED TO ONLINE. LIKE DUH OF COURSE I'D USE MINE Y DO I EVEN BOTHER TO USE URS IF I GET TO USE MINE??? UR SO STUPID U THINK I'D USE URS JUST TO GET TO ARGUE WITH U N TAKE THAT RISK? THATS PLAIN STUPID-NESS. SAY I SHUD USE MY DAD'S LAPTOP THEN. I DID USE HIS LAPTOP. IT WAS LATE AT NIGHT DAD'S ASEELP. SO I SHUD WAKE MY DAD UP, SACRIFICE HIS SLP WHEN I CUD USE URS. WHAT A DAUGHTER. UR NOT AT HOME ANYWAY. SO IF I CANT BORROW IT FRM MY DAD, N ITS LIKE 11PM, I SHUD DRIVE OUT TO MY FRIEND'S HOUSE N USE THEIR COMPUTER. USE UR BRAIN LAH ITS LATE U THINK MOM N DAD WUD LET ME DRIVE OUT ALONE JUST TO ONLINE FOR 10MINS. N THE REASON THEY DONT LET ME GO OUT LATE AT NIGHT IS CAUSE ITS LATE N ITS A FRIDAY THERE MAYBE STREET RASCALS N MAT REMPITS. SO I SHUD RISK MY LIFE TO GO OUT WHEN THERE IS A COMPUTER RIGHT NEXT TO MY ROOM. SO UC AN LET UNCLE SING N AUNT USE UR PC FOR SO MANY DAYS N WILLING TO BRING IT OUT TO THE LIVING ROOM AND NOT LET A SISTER USE? HMM... MORE REASONS TO ELIMINATE ANY RELATIONSHIPS WITH U. U LISTEN N U LISTEN GOOD. I DONT HAVE A SISTER AND THE ONLY THING WE ARE RELATED TO IS OUR DNAs N THATS IT. OTHER THAN THAT, I DONT KNOW U.
IF I ASKED I WUDNT ET TO USE IT. IF I DONT ASK, I DONT GET TO USE IT EITHER. IF I ASKED, WE'D ARGUE, IF I DIN ASK WE'D ARGUE AFTA U FIND OUT. SO I THINK THE SAFER ROUTE IS TO RISK U FINDING OUT N USE IT CUZ I NEED TO USE IT. ASK N DONT ASK OSO SAME, Y BOTHER ASKIN? UR JUST SAYING "USE MY THINGS NONIT TO ASK ME ONE IZIT!!??" THAT'S JUST AN EXCUSE ISNT IT. WHATEVER I SAY U JUST DONT ACCEPT ONLY.
EVEN IF IM SICK U'D MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF IT JUST CUZ ITS MY TURN TO SHOWER THE DOG AND U GO COMPLAIN TO MOM N SHOW UR STUPID FACE N WHINE N COMPLAIN THAT ITS SUPPOSE TO BE MY TURN TO SHOWER THE DOG. WELL IM ON FEVER, I'VE GOT A SWOLLEN THROAT AND MY HEAD FEELS LIKE I HAVE A SCREW IN IT. I'D SHOWER THE DOG IF UR SICK. U WUDNT. I'D SHOWER THE DOG THE NEXT WHOLE MONTH IF U SHOWER HER TODAY. BUT NOOOOO U DONT THINK THAT WAY. U DONT CARE ABOUT ME. IF IM SICK ITS MY OWN PROBLEM CAUSE ITS SUPPOSE TO BE MY TURN. ITS JUST A GOD DAMN SHOWER THE DOG CHORE WHICH DIDNT EVEN TAKE 15MINS.
U COUNT EVERYTHING WITH ME!!!
"ITS SUPPOSE TO B HER TURN TO DO THE DISHES!!!"
"I MOPPED THE FLOOR LAST WEEK ALREADY!"
"GET OUT OF THE ROOM I NEED TO SLEEP ALREADY, U ONLINE WITH UR LAPTOP LIGHT AND THE TYPING IS TOO NOISY I NEED TO SLEEP"
"DONT TOUCH MY CLOTHES"
"DONT TOUCH MY BAGS"
"WHO ATE MY CAKE ON THE TABLE!!! MUST BE U!"
AND U JUST SCREAM THE WHOLE HOUSE IF U KNOW IT WAS ME WHO DID SOMETHING THAT U ARE JUST TAK SYOK ABOUT.
2 YRS AGO U USED A BAD WORD ON ME. U USED IT ON ME FIRST. I DONT CARE EVEN IF I USE ANY BAD WORDS ON U CAUSE IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE. A BITCH DESERVES TO BE CALLED A BITCH.
FOR UR INFORMATION I DIDNT SPOIL YOUR STUFF. U BORROWED ME A SPOILED MEMORY CARD READER N CLAIMED THAT I SPOILED IT. WELL MY CAMERA USES AN SD CARD. N BY USING THAT PORT, IT SPOILED THE MEMORY CARD SLOT THAT READS UR HP'S TINY MEMORY CARD. WOW. N SO I FIGURED IT WAS MY FAULT, I WENT TO THE PC FAIR N BOUGHT HER A NEW ONE THE VERY NEXT WEEK. NOTHING SATISFIES HER . NOTHING AT ALL. NOTHING CAN MAKE HER SATISFIED UNLESS IM DEAD.
SOMETIMES I THINK, WHAT MADE US THIS WAY? MUST ME SOMETHING I DID THEN. AND TO PREVENT ANYTHING FROM HAPPENING I'L JUST NOT TOUCH UR THINGS AT ALL N NOT TREAT U AS A SISTER. I TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY THEY TREATED ME. ALL ALONG U TREATED ME LIKE SHIT. I'VE BEEN ABLE TO HOLD DOWN AND JUST KEEP QUIET. NOW IM STANDING UP FOR MYSELF N IT GOT WORSE. GUESS THE ONLY SOLUTION IS TO CUT THE SISTER LINE.
U KNOW WHAT? SCREW IT. SCREW EVERYTHING!! I DONT HAVE A SISTER. MAKES ME FEEL BETTER NOT HAVING ONE
U MADE ME THIS WAY. FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS. NO WAIT, SINCE MNTHS AGO, I HAVE CONDSIDERED MYSELF A SINGLE CHILD. BUT FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS, IF PEOPLE ASK IF I GOT ANY SIBLINGS, I'L JUST SAY IM THE ONLY CHILD.
80% OF MY BRAIN TELLS ME TO RUN AWAY FROM HOME NOW. JUST SO I WONT SEE HER FUCK FACE. I DONT CARE NOW EVEN IF I CUDNT AFFORD TO GO OUT OF MALAYSIA TO STUDY, IM STIL GOING TO KL. I DONT CARE. I JUST DONT WANNA B HOME. I WISH SHE'D FASTER GET MARRIED WITH CALVIN N IT WUD B HIS PROBLEM TO SETTLE HER NOW. NOT MINE. AND I DONT HAVE TO SEE HER FACE ANYMORE AND MY LIFE WOULD BE HAPPIER.
AND AFTER I GRADUATE FROM DEGREE, IM MOVING OUT RIGHT AFTA I GET MY FIRST PAY CHECK. EVEN IF IM WORKING IN PENANG, IM MOVING OUT.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
huge letter allll the way from aussie. i wonder who sent it? hehe!
its a tuesday. normal lazy tuesday for me. holiday now for 2 weeks. i've got alot of things to do but still, my holidays will never be the same. as last sem's holiday...
woke up. had lunch. took my towel. was goin into the bathroom when.... *jeng jeng jeng*
my granma took a big envelope into the dining room table.
my mom was like, "who's letter? so big de?"
without lookin at the name my granma said. "dunno for who, autralia send lai de."
then i walked backwards a few step, peeped into the dining room.
mom was examining the letter front to back and said "nah its for u" she said to me.
n went up n said, "haiya sure its frm liang," i told my mom, with a cheeky face. then i said "i wanna look at the stamp and scold ppl d" guess my mom saw what he wrote a the back of the envelope "oh btw ther;s a small teaser inside for whats to come" very ambiguous. people might misunderstand u know. even the post man might. lol...
i took the whole BIG ENVELOPE and put it on my bed and went to take my shower. i wanted to take my time reading the whole thing.
woke up. had lunch. took my towel. was goin into the bathroom when.... *jeng jeng jeng*
my granma took a big envelope into the dining room table.
my mom was like, "who's letter? so big de?"
without lookin at the name my granma said. "dunno for who, autralia send lai de."
then i walked backwards a few step, peeped into the dining room.
mom was examining the letter front to back and said "nah its for u" she said to me.
n went up n said, "haiya sure its frm liang," i told my mom, with a cheeky face. then i said "i wanna look at the stamp and scold ppl d" guess my mom saw what he wrote a the back of the envelope "oh btw ther;s a small teaser inside for whats to come" very ambiguous. people might misunderstand u know. even the post man might. lol...
i took the whole BIG ENVELOPE and put it on my bed and went to take my shower. i wanted to take my time reading the whole thing.
first movie since february!!
i wanted to blog last night but somehow i cant log in. plus, im suppose to sleep early. if not, that lil devil over there *points to the profile picture* will stay up late just cause i stay up late and he wil not get enough sleep and he has classes at 8am (aussie time) and he needs his sleep and he's tired and the time is 3hrs faster and he's just simply being a big naughty head. hmmph!
okay we went to aus ed yesterday. dunno where shud we go afta our diploma. for sure there is no where in penang for the subjects we want so... the nearest is monash kl. furthest is... well.. erm... uk. of course australia is one of the options but... sydney is definately one of the options. perth and melb has what we want as well but... we are still not sure.
then we went for a movie! its like the first movie i've watched since cubby left. 10,000 BC. its a very very nice movie. camilla belle looked really pretty in the movie hehe... i don mind watching it again n again. i'll get the dvds and watch it again with cubby when he comes back. hehe... n i'll make sure i get them before he reaches anywhere near penang =D nyek nyek nyek...
other movies that i plan to watch. but havent watch yet. and that i wanted to get the dvd for our collection of movies for the movie marathon at the end of this yr, are... step up 2, 27 dresses, martian kid (or martian child i don rmb), jumper, red line, good luck chuck, gone baby gone and spiderwick. for now. haha... and its only just march!! i think i'll get like 50 over dvds by the end of this year. haha... they we will watch till our eyes pop out @.@
pictures for that day... i just felt like taking pics. i just cut my hair a few days ago, not much difference but... hehe...
(top: nic jo n fi. bottom: fi jo n nic. haha...)
I NEED TO BE FAT!!! -er.
okay we went to aus ed yesterday. dunno where shud we go afta our diploma. for sure there is no where in penang for the subjects we want so... the nearest is monash kl. furthest is... well.. erm... uk. of course australia is one of the options but... sydney is definately one of the options. perth and melb has what we want as well but... we are still not sure.
then we went for a movie! its like the first movie i've watched since cubby left. 10,000 BC. its a very very nice movie. camilla belle looked really pretty in the movie hehe... i don mind watching it again n again. i'll get the dvds and watch it again with cubby when he comes back. hehe... n i'll make sure i get them before he reaches anywhere near penang =D nyek nyek nyek...
other movies that i plan to watch. but havent watch yet. and that i wanted to get the dvd for our collection of movies for the movie marathon at the end of this yr, are... step up 2, 27 dresses, martian kid (or martian child i don rmb), jumper, red line, good luck chuck, gone baby gone and spiderwick. for now. haha... and its only just march!! i think i'll get like 50 over dvds by the end of this year. haha... they we will watch till our eyes pop out @.@
pictures for that day... i just felt like taking pics. i just cut my hair a few days ago, not much difference but... hehe...
(top: nic jo n fi. bottom: fi jo n nic. haha...)
I NEED TO BE FAT!!! -er.Monday, March 10, 2008
Familiarity in a Foreign Land
Note : i am living at Kensington now which is further from my uni now (the exact distance is a 20 - 30 minute bus ride away from where i used to live)
Woke up at 8 today, got myself prepared and walked to a bus stop to take a bus route i am still trying to familiarize with, 3, 4 buses gone by full so had to wait for another 15 more minutes looking around at strange faces with their monday blues face. Finally a bus which fit us all just nice. Stood there staring out the window at the foreign views passing by feeling sleepy and empty, was it my sleepiness or my empty stomach or was it my heart that was calling out.
[note : saw a couple around 40+ 50 years old who came onto the same bus as i did, had to stand and the woman had her arms around the man, but there was not much grip so she had to let go and instead laid her head on his chest and rubbed his cheeks with her fingers and a giggle.....awwww.....i wanna be like that when we are old baby =) ]
The short 20 minutes journey ended yet at another unfamilliar bus stop and a short walk till i came back to familiar view *George Street and the QVB*. Unconciously, i took a longer road down the subway station of Townhall, my feet carried me as if tracing back the steps i last took nearly 5 months ago and then a wave of familiar smell filled up my nostrills, the bakery which always had really strong butter smell (don't remember the name of the store), the smell of coffee opposite it and the sight of the red "Hokka" signboard beside it hit me. It was nice to smell and see all these again.
The bus stop i usually wait at, well wait behind, was tored down and merged with another one in front, so once again i am a few steps away from my comfort zone, the place where i usually stand at while waiting for the bus. The 288 bus came and soon the famliar sight of the buildings, Harbour Bridge, out towards the highway and country side lulled me to sleep.
A few other famliar things or faces at Macquarie are, the seat at Borders where i always sit and read my time away, the old man John's face, one of the staff at Borders who recommended quite a few books to me, Macquarie Centre, my uni.
Time to go home. The famliar bus ride, QVB again and the smell of KFC was in the air though its like on street away, it always filled the air at night for some reason. My feet once again carried me fromt he cold, foreign looking Bathrust Street where i could take my bus back and instead chose to walk further down George Street and then Liverpool Street, more famliar places, with korean chatter, the lights of World Square, Hungry Jacks.
I can't say i am glad to be back, given my dear baby isn't with me, but at least the famlirarity gave a little comfort to my missing heart.
I feel hot liquid forming around my eyes that has familiarize itself since i came whenever i think of my baby boo that is a million miles away at a place where i call home.
Woke up at 8 today, got myself prepared and walked to a bus stop to take a bus route i am still trying to familiarize with, 3, 4 buses gone by full so had to wait for another 15 more minutes looking around at strange faces with their monday blues face. Finally a bus which fit us all just nice. Stood there staring out the window at the foreign views passing by feeling sleepy and empty, was it my sleepiness or my empty stomach or was it my heart that was calling out.
[note : saw a couple around 40+ 50 years old who came onto the same bus as i did, had to stand and the woman had her arms around the man, but there was not much grip so she had to let go and instead laid her head on his chest and rubbed his cheeks with her fingers and a giggle.....awwww.....i wanna be like that when we are old baby =) ]
The short 20 minutes journey ended yet at another unfamilliar bus stop and a short walk till i came back to familiar view *George Street and the QVB*. Unconciously, i took a longer road down the subway station of Townhall, my feet carried me as if tracing back the steps i last took nearly 5 months ago and then a wave of familiar smell filled up my nostrills, the bakery which always had really strong butter smell (don't remember the name of the store), the smell of coffee opposite it and the sight of the red "Hokka" signboard beside it hit me. It was nice to smell and see all these again.
The bus stop i usually wait at, well wait behind, was tored down and merged with another one in front, so once again i am a few steps away from my comfort zone, the place where i usually stand at while waiting for the bus. The 288 bus came and soon the famliar sight of the buildings, Harbour Bridge, out towards the highway and country side lulled me to sleep.
A few other famliar things or faces at Macquarie are, the seat at Borders where i always sit and read my time away, the old man John's face, one of the staff at Borders who recommended quite a few books to me, Macquarie Centre, my uni.
Time to go home. The famliar bus ride, QVB again and the smell of KFC was in the air though its like on street away, it always filled the air at night for some reason. My feet once again carried me fromt he cold, foreign looking Bathrust Street where i could take my bus back and instead chose to walk further down George Street and then Liverpool Street, more famliar places, with korean chatter, the lights of World Square, Hungry Jacks.
I can't say i am glad to be back, given my dear baby isn't with me, but at least the famlirarity gave a little comfort to my missing heart.
I feel hot liquid forming around my eyes that has familiarize itself since i came whenever i think of my baby boo that is a million miles away at a place where i call home.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
with youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu =D
gastric painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn =(
i just recovered from a fever, followed by a swollen throat (okay fine its just a sore throat, but it really felt swollen =/) then i got this stupid cough that ate my 3hrs of sleep everynight. n now im getting a headache. i think i played too much games. ahh!!!! =X
i need chu boo...
i gotta see u boo...
n my heart's all over the world tonight...
cuz my heart went lookin for u tonight
i need chu boo...
i gotta see u boo...
n my heart's all over the world tonight
yeah my heart were lookin for day n night.
hey lil devil, disguised as a charmer,
hey lil snatcher, you're stil the winner, and
i so glad that chu won
u won my heart and soul, and
ooh you're my teddy, feel it when u hug me
i know its never enough, making me want more, and
i so glad that u are mine
we managed to kill the line, and
what means to me is to know i've got u, and
together baby we can rule the whole world too
cause if i got u, i dont need money,
needa have my honey, boy you're my heart....
and oh, im in love with u
like no, one else would do.
with every kiss and every hug, u made me, all in love
and now i, try so hard to be the only one,
cause my heart's floating around the air tonight
with the love of my life, i feel
what i feel when im with u with u with u with u with u..
with u, with u, with u, with u, with u....
i dont want nobody else,
without u there's no one else, that
likes laska as much as me, i've gotta have my sugar baby
hey lil naughty, sweeter than honey,
i know u care for me,
i know that u'll love me,
u know that i love u
u know that i wil try
to be your everything
cause if i got u, i dont need money,
needa have my honey, boy you're my heart....
and oh, im in love with u
like no, one else would do.
with every kiss and every hug, u made me, all in love
and now i, try so hard to be the only one,
cause my heart's floating around the air tonight
with the love of my life, i feel
what i feel when im with u with u with u with u with u..
with u, with u, with u, with u, with u....
and i, will never deny, the fact,that your soul's my life
cause if u, ever let me go
i would kill, u and homer too
i dont need some other lover
i just need u or nothing
cause if i got u
then i wont be blue
baby your the best slice of my life
i need chu boo...
i gotta see u boo...
cuz my heart went lookin for u tonight
it went here to down under the world at night
i need chu boo...
i gotta see u boo...
n my heart's all over the world tonight
yeah my heart's missin u for day n night.
i just recovered from a fever, followed by a swollen throat (okay fine its just a sore throat, but it really felt swollen =/) then i got this stupid cough that ate my 3hrs of sleep everynight. n now im getting a headache. i think i played too much games. ahh!!!! =X
i need chu boo...
i gotta see u boo...
n my heart's all over the world tonight...
cuz my heart went lookin for u tonight
i need chu boo...
i gotta see u boo...
n my heart's all over the world tonight
yeah my heart were lookin for day n night.
hey lil devil, disguised as a charmer,
hey lil snatcher, you're stil the winner, and
i so glad that chu won
u won my heart and soul, and
ooh you're my teddy, feel it when u hug me
i know its never enough, making me want more, and
i so glad that u are mine
we managed to kill the line, and
what means to me is to know i've got u, and
together baby we can rule the whole world too
cause if i got u, i dont need money,
needa have my honey, boy you're my heart....
and oh, im in love with u
like no, one else would do.
with every kiss and every hug, u made me, all in love
and now i, try so hard to be the only one,
cause my heart's floating around the air tonight
with the love of my life, i feel
what i feel when im with u with u with u with u with u..
with u, with u, with u, with u, with u....
i dont want nobody else,
without u there's no one else, that
likes laska as much as me, i've gotta have my sugar baby
hey lil naughty, sweeter than honey,
i know u care for me,
i know that u'll love me,
u know that i love u
u know that i wil try
to be your everything
cause if i got u, i dont need money,
needa have my honey, boy you're my heart....
and oh, im in love with u
like no, one else would do.
with every kiss and every hug, u made me, all in love
and now i, try so hard to be the only one,
cause my heart's floating around the air tonight
with the love of my life, i feel
what i feel when im with u with u with u with u with u..
with u, with u, with u, with u, with u....
and i, will never deny, the fact,that your soul's my life
cause if u, ever let me go
i would kill, u and homer too
i dont need some other lover
i just need u or nothing
cause if i got u
then i wont be blue
baby your the best slice of my life
i need chu boo...
i gotta see u boo...
cuz my heart went lookin for u tonight
it went here to down under the world at night
i need chu boo...
i gotta see u boo...
n my heart's all over the world tonight
yeah my heart's missin u for day n night.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Tear Drops On My Keyboard
My dear baby, I miss your smiles that I can’t see
Oh I want and I'm missing everything that we should be
I stare at my laptop, typing what I think about
This song is all I have to offer when I am not around
When you type to me, I think of us so longingly
That I can't even read one word you typed to me
Even through all the tears, I know my choice is right,
Cause it’s you, that will walk beside me all through my life
You’re the reason for the teardrops on my keyboard
The only one that I miss more than even words can tell
You’re the sun in the sky, that I wish would be by my side.
My dear baby, can you see we’re meant to be?
Our fingers fit, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless only some can dream
I know I’ll hold you tight, give you all my love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know you’re mine because
You’re the reason I keep smiling late at night
The only one that keeps me warm from every chilling nights
You’re the words in my songs, I just wanna sing ‘I love you”
When I walk home alone, under the starless night
I'll take your picture out and baby
it all turns bright
You're the reason for the teardrops on my keyboard
The only one who's got enough for me to light my heart
You’re the one, only one I keep thinking of, oh yes it’s true
There’s more to come, I am not done, I’ll give more than enough
So it’s me that you’ll fall deeper into..
My dear baby, It’s only you that I want with me.
More reasons for you to love this song =)...muackzsszszszsz love you
Song by Taylor Swift, Tear Drops On My Guitar
Oh I want and I'm missing everything that we should be
I stare at my laptop, typing what I think about
This song is all I have to offer when I am not around
When you type to me, I think of us so longingly
That I can't even read one word you typed to me
Even through all the tears, I know my choice is right,
Cause it’s you, that will walk beside me all through my life
You’re the reason for the teardrops on my keyboard
The only one that I miss more than even words can tell
You’re the sun in the sky, that I wish would be by my side.
My dear baby, can you see we’re meant to be?
Our fingers fit, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless only some can dream
I know I’ll hold you tight, give you all my love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know you’re mine because
You’re the reason I keep smiling late at night
The only one that keeps me warm from every chilling nights
You’re the words in my songs, I just wanna sing ‘I love you”
When I walk home alone, under the starless night
I'll take your picture out and baby
it all turns bright
You're the reason for the teardrops on my keyboard
The only one who's got enough for me to light my heart
You’re the one, only one I keep thinking of, oh yes it’s true
There’s more to come, I am not done, I’ll give more than enough
So it’s me that you’ll fall deeper into..
My dear baby, It’s only you that I want with me.
More reasons for you to love this song =)...muackzsszszszsz love you
Song by Taylor Swift, Tear Drops On My Guitar
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
nothing interesting
lately its raining everyday here. looks like days without sunshine is always gloomy. looks like its going to be gloomy for 8 mnths. hehehe....
yay! exam's over. 1 more sem to go till my internships. then to my degree. then...
nyek nyek nyekkk....
my lil devil's doin his tuts now. im just doing nothing online.
i need foooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood!!!! i need hughugs. ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry. haha...
yay! exam's over. 1 more sem to go till my internships. then to my degree. then...
nyek nyek nyekkk....
my lil devil's doin his tuts now. im just doing nothing online.
i need foooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood!!!! i need hughugs. ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry. haha...
Monday, March 3, 2008
Read at your own risk........cause you might think it's crap
well i am going to post a little on sydney and a little of what happened in the past 3 weeks. It's almost autumn now i believe and it is either always raining or strong winds blowing, i can even hear the howling of the wind from my bedroom, the sun is still as hot as ever but the wind makes it freezing cold. I miss your warm hugs baby....well that is the end of some weather report.
Now for some people report...haha....there is still a crazy amount of Asians around, especially chinese chinese, they basically populate the whole world i believe except for the middle east because i guess it's too hot there the girls would start putting on sunblock everyday,carry an umbrella around and complain its too hot and end up staying at home all day, so there is basically no point staying there. Well that is my theory. Hahaha.....
I met up with my korean friend, Seong Han, he asked if i wanted to stay over at his place which is nearer to uni, a 15 to 20 minutes walk compared to 2 bus rides which take 1 and a half hour from where i am currently living. There are 3 more korean guys and a japanese, so i can learn more korean and maybe a little japanese which is really tempting, but i will decide if i would move after staying here for awhile.
That is basically it, nothing much happened besides me missing my baby boo every single day and of course loving her =).
Oh ya my stomach shrank, so far i've had home cooked food or take aways so i can choose the amount of rice i eat, and just a few days ago i went and eat economy rice and i was seriously really very extremely full and could not finish it. Don't think i can finish a foot long subway anymore hon, well i haven't tried wil tell you when i do. =)
I haven't forget...muackzszssz miss you love you baby =)
Now for some people report...haha....there is still a crazy amount of Asians around, especially chinese chinese, they basically populate the whole world i believe except for the middle east because i guess it's too hot there the girls would start putting on sunblock everyday,carry an umbrella around and complain its too hot and end up staying at home all day, so there is basically no point staying there. Well that is my theory. Hahaha.....
I met up with my korean friend, Seong Han, he asked if i wanted to stay over at his place which is nearer to uni, a 15 to 20 minutes walk compared to 2 bus rides which take 1 and a half hour from where i am currently living. There are 3 more korean guys and a japanese, so i can learn more korean and maybe a little japanese which is really tempting, but i will decide if i would move after staying here for awhile.
That is basically it, nothing much happened besides me missing my baby boo every single day and of course loving her =).
Oh ya my stomach shrank, so far i've had home cooked food or take aways so i can choose the amount of rice i eat, and just a few days ago i went and eat economy rice and i was seriously really very extremely full and could not finish it. Don't think i can finish a foot long subway anymore hon, well i haven't tried wil tell you when i do. =)
I haven't forget...muackzszssz miss you love you baby =)
Saturday, March 1, 2008
.sell.the.manga.out.of.the.box.
first official normal post frm me!! =p
the animanga club has this 'sell the manga out of the box' event 2 days earlier.
they r selling comics, dvds, figurines, cosplay clothes, food etc etc... so i was helpin out =D
the animanga club has this 'sell the manga out of the box' event 2 days earlier.
they r selling comics, dvds, figurines, cosplay clothes, food etc etc... so i was helpin out =D
this is edwynn tryin to act cute. with me and some cat puppet thing i dunno frm which anime or manga. just wanted to take a pic with it haha...
these r some of the figurines b4 the even started. it has a big DO NOT TOUCH label right in front of it =.=
this is suppose to b misa and L frm death note. the only comic that i know. i watched the movie that's y ;)
Misa, L, me and the death note book
justin and andrea, and the second-hand-but-still-in-perfect-condition comic books on sale
andrea, tsu and me XDtsu looks cool haha...
tsu and the prince of tennis guy. i dont know him but he really looked like the character. haha
these are the... erm.. lolita / french maid girls. i shall be nice n not give any comments
me and fi playin with the sticks / weapons / samurai swords or whatever it is =D
im suppose to look fierce.
ok take 2. look fierce!!!
ok i tried. i'll just do the untraman sign with the sticks. hehehe
the charlie's angels wannabe. nic fi n me. with some anime thing on our head.
really. we kinda look like charlie's angel's. see... nic's busty. she cud b drew barrymore. hahaha... fi ar.. she's prettier and she's in the middle anyway so.. she's cameron diaz. i hav single eyelids so i'l just be lucy liu. hahaha. we have our weapons too. hahaha
. =) currently i love teardrops on my guitar - taylor swift.
-Prologue-
It started off really hard for her. Honestly she was with this guy all along. It was a 1 yr plus relationship. It was a problematic one. She cried every month, nearly every week, going through things she doesn’t have to go through. She was stupid. She believes in the saying “no man is worth your tears. The one who is wont make u cry”
It hurts her even more, when a friend cares more than a boyfriend. Simple words can already tell, who cares more. She told the guy how she wanted more sugar in her bread, and got into arguments. And whenever she’s down, somehow the best friend is her only support through anything and everything.
It all ended all of a sudden, out of the blue, when her best friend came back from
A simple sentence, a simple word, just some chat some laughter over dinner, a movie, a simple hang out, some sms-es everyday and some minor mistakes, plus some luck and fate… is what that fell into the cauldron, the perfect ingredients to brew a love potion.
Enchanted was the movie. “so close yet so far”. The movie said to go for the one true love even though its not the prince. That’s what hit her. Everything was like planned by fate that day. We weren’t supposed to see each other anymore. We bumped into each other at queensbay. We’ve got nobody to watch enchanted with. He had an extra car. Her parents were at some dinner, there was no curfew. She had paddington’s n he had it too. The day ended with a daring move frm her. Her mind wasn’t thinking right. Cause nothing is in her mind but him. The nx date her mind wasn’t thinking right either. N made another daring move. Much more daring than the previous one. It was very emotional of her to do so. But she did not regret.
The story was like a tale in some drama series. But it was actually a true story.
This story will go on, through thick and thin. For she has found her true soul mate.
It was just 2 months, flew pass in lightning speed. The 2 weeks now, crawls pass as if there were 50hrs in a day. But she will wait, for 8 months. Its what she’s willing to do, n what she thinks its worth doing for, for her love, her life, her prince, her romeo.
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After nearly two happiest months of his life, he sits in the plane watching the clouds drift by his window, as the cars and houses begin to fade from his vision, the longing in his heart grew bigger and bigger. Liang held onto the tupperware which smelled of tuna, it was sandwich made by the girl he loved so much, she had also put a few kisses (its chocolate) and ferrero roche in it. By the sound of it, there had to be something inside. He looked around the tupperware from the outside and found nothing, it must be inside then he thought to himself. He opened it ever so carefully and pick up the bread, true enough, in between the two slices of bread lay a small pink note, in front of it the words “baby bear, on his first flight”, he smiled at the sight of it but did not open it as he would have plenty of time to do so. “The sandwich first” he thought, tuna, one of his favourite and Jocelyn’s too.
As Liang finished the sandwich, his mind wandered back to the paper, tears swelled up in his eyes as he read it, part of it were the words, part of it was the 8 months they would be apart, he was starting to miss Jocelyn already but his lips still formed a smile cause at the back of the note it wrote “forever yours, Jo”. That’s something special as it was only the second time he has heard or saw her saying it to him and what makes it even more special is the fact that no one else has ever got that sentence from her before.=) =) =)…. After reading, he set the box aside and told himself, “we are going to make this work, I am going to make sure it works, and make sure these 8 months shall be the catalyst of many great things to come……
liang&Jo © ™
A Simple Post
As I sat there on my desk thinking back at how everything begun, it certainly wasn’t easy to take the first step for the both of us, but its how many simple things turned out to be wonderful which brought us ever so close.
A simple meeting after such a long time,
A simple and naturally given goodbye hug,
The simplest of things said and done,
A simple hint,
A simple unsuspecting kiss. Well maybe a few kisses =D,
The simplicity of what my brain and heart told me to do, “go for her” that was what my criminal accomplices asked me to do.
A quote from the song “I finally found someone”…..”it started over coffee, we started out as friends, its funny how from simple things, the best things begin….”. Well we didn’t start over coffee, we started over a movie =) *well that was at our first and unsuspecting day out =)*, we certainly started out as friends, and how simple things has gave me the best things, and of cause the best among all is you.
Even now, when we are far apart and things are difficult, its the simplest of thing that will keep us together and make it through these all, a simple “I love you” right from the bottom of our hearts.
Muackszszzs….
Liang.
PS : i couldnt wait till our prologue to post this =P
A simple meeting after such a long time,
A simple and naturally given goodbye hug,
The simplest of things said and done,
A simple hint,
A simple unsuspecting kiss. Well maybe a few kisses =D,
The simplicity of what my brain and heart told me to do, “go for her” that was what my criminal accomplices asked me to do.
A quote from the song “I finally found someone”…..”it started over coffee, we started out as friends, its funny how from simple things, the best things begin….”. Well we didn’t start over coffee, we started over a movie =) *well that was at our first and unsuspecting day out =)*, we certainly started out as friends, and how simple things has gave me the best things, and of cause the best among all is you.
Even now, when we are far apart and things are difficult, its the simplest of thing that will keep us together and make it through these all, a simple “I love you” right from the bottom of our hearts.
Muackszszzs….
Liang.
PS : i couldnt wait till our prologue to post this =P
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