a few things lately have made me realise that actually, there is a little Bree in me. the Bree in desperate housewives.
yesterday i went to the education fair at PISA, and there was this personality test at the booth of Nilai university college to find out which type of course and which type of work suits the person more. Fi was testing it out and i wanted to test too. it turned out to be that i am a choleric. they say that there are no good and bad in every personality. it has its own good and bad behaviour. but cholerics sound so... bossy, stubborn, demanding and all. ==( am i a bossy person?
anyway the 4 types of personalities are...
Choleric: This is the commander-type. Cholerics are dominant, strong, decisive, stubborn and even arrogant.
Melancholy: This is the mental-type. Their typical behaviour involves thinking, assessing, making lists, evaluating the positives and negatives, and general analysis of facts.
Sanguine: This is the social-type. They enjoy fun, socialising, chatting, telling stories - and are fond of promising the world, because that's the friendly thing to do.
Phlegmatic: This is the flat-type. They are easy going, laid back, nonchalant, unexcitable and relaxed. Desiring a peaceful environment above all else.
Melancholy: This is the mental-type. Their typical behaviour involves thinking, assessing, making lists, evaluating the positives and negatives, and general analysis of facts.
Sanguine: This is the social-type. They enjoy fun, socialising, chatting, telling stories - and are fond of promising the world, because that's the friendly thing to do.
Phlegmatic: This is the flat-type. They are easy going, laid back, nonchalant, unexcitable and relaxed. Desiring a peaceful environment above all else.
i am not decisive at all, i cant decide on almost everything cause i am so afraid of making the wrong decisions and regretting it later on. i cant even decide on which flavour of pretzel to take! its either a powery one like cinnamon sugar and sour cream and onion, or a liquidy one like choc eclair or almond with dip. those are the usual ones that i take. or to take the usual nice ones, or try a new flavour. then i dont think i'll end up liking it and then it makes me think again, i could stand in front of the stall for 15 mins to decide on a flavour.
i am also a social type. i can basically talk to strangers non stop and i believe i am a really talkative person, hope its not annoying talkative. and i hate awkward silence. thats why i talk. lol...
extremely impatient. i like to get things done fast. if i dont i get really frustrated and cranky. probably cause i didnt want to waste precious time when you can actually do something with it.
i get bored really easily. its also stated in all the horoscope books on Geminis actually.
i am actually emotional and expressive. if im happy i can jump around and i dont care if i look like a fool in public. when im sad, i really am sad and im really bad at hiding fears tears giggles and... yeah alot of things.
i like peaceful environments but i am definately not unexcitable and i dont know if i am laid back or not.
i get bored really easily. its also stated in all the horoscope books on Geminis actually.
i am actually emotional and expressive. if im happy i can jump around and i dont care if i look like a fool in public. when im sad, i really am sad and im really bad at hiding fears tears giggles and... yeah alot of things.
i like peaceful environments but i am definately not unexcitable and i dont know if i am laid back or not.
definately not a born leader cause im afraid to lead. what if i let my group members down? but i'd lead if i see like (no offence but) useless lazy poeple in my group i'd stand up and fight for the leader's position cause i dont trust my grades in the hands of a person who fails almost all the subjects all the time. now i sound like a bad bossy person T.T
i cant afford to make even the slightest bad decision! includin eating just 1 extra prawn, which i could have saved up the additional cholesterol food to eat twisties instead. then i wont be able to brush the thought off my mind for at least like an afternoon or evening.
more info on cholerics...
- You are strong-willed and decisive, independent and self-sufficient.
- You are not easily discouraged and can be unemotional when necessary.
- You are capable of running anything and exude confidence.
- You are an expert in exerting sound leadership, establishing goals and able to motivate the family in to action.
- You always know the right answer and organize the household.
- You are very goal oriented, see the whole picture and organize well.
- You seek practical solutions to problems and move quickly to action.
- You delegate work but insist on productivity.
- You make the goals, stimulate activity and thrive on opposition.
- You have little need for friends and will work for group activity.
- You often lead from the front, organize and are usually right.
- You excel during emergencies
A Choleric is focused on getting things done, but can run rough-shod over others. They are decisive and stubborn.
A Melancholy is a highly talented person, they have brilliant ideas, although sometimes they can paralyse themselves with over-analysis. Lists and "doing things the right way" are characteristics of this personality type.
A Sanguine gets on well with people and can get others excited about issues, but cannot always be relied upon to get things done. They love interacting with others and play the role of the entertainer in group interactions. They have a tendency to over-promise and under-deliver.
A Phlegmatic is neutral - they tend not to actively upset people, but their indifference may frustrate people. They try not to make decisions, and generally go for the status quo. They care about people and harmony.
take for example yesterday. i went to bin's hse for a stay over. we stayed up till 4.30am and i was sooooo slpy i fell right asleep when the lights are off. and guess what? i forgot to brush my teeth! something that i have not done in my entire life since... well maybe when i was in primary or in kindergarden. i cant live without the feeling of a clean minty mouth every day and night. i cant stand people with bad breath and rotten teeth. untidy teeth is ok but rotten ones? no. even my dentist said i brush my teeth too much.
before that bin took her contact lense off when she reached home. without washing her hands with soap. my eyes were kinda dry and i wanna take them off too. i washed my hands with soap, rubbed and rinsed it with saline water and place them in fresh lense solution. and i thought to myself. am i the only one who does that all the time?
as i was the one who set the alarm the night before, i woke up earlier than the rest of them even after at least 1 hour of snoozing. i brushed my teeth, bin's mom bought ban chang kuey. i was up and eating already and they are all still in bed. then i spotted a hp charging in the corner. i had to switch it off. i dont know who's hp is it, charging overnight can kill the lifespan of a battery. i had to switch it off. im till on my holiday, i can actually sleep till late but i dont want to. cause no.1 we have to go to butterworth, 2, hav lunch, 3, go for a movie, 4, maybe a spa (or not) and 4, be home by 4pm cause bin has rehersals. plus (5) if i wake up late i will sleep really late at night and it will 1, turn my biological clock upside down. 2, in time make me look older than i actually am, 3, affect my health, 4, add more eye bags on me when the past 2/3 months have given me balloon sized eyebags that i wish i could just pop it with a needle. 5, its not my house. 6, i just couldnt sleep till too late ok? hahaha...
then when they were still getting ready, even though i know she has a maid, i cudnt stand the junk food wrapers and empty bottles on the floor. i had to pick them up.
so i told bin n asked her about it and she said "good la, perfectionist."
then i thought of what liang told me about a friend who is like the virgo in virgos. ultimate perfectionists.
me? a perfectionist? you gotta be kidding! though i am not sure what i am still. my lack of capability in juggling my life between my work life, social life, love life, family life and all the other lifes in me costed me to lose an extremely valueable, meaningful and happy life. when i hav been trying so hard on so many things at so many times to juggle between them.
even bin told me, she's leaving in a few days. she cant spend every minute with edwin even if the both of them wanted to. cause she needs to do alot of other things. which includes going out with all of us and all. she cant stay over his place too often cause she needs to be with her mom at home as well. she had to run errands and get a few things settled. do rehersals for a performance on wednesday. she had to juggle all of those things in life. and she couldnt spend too much time with edwin. it totally make sense. unless he doesnt mind to run errands and all with her and all....
sleep, to me, is extremely important. aside from the points listed above, i know myself, that if i dont get enough sleep, i will be cranky throughout the day. when people talk to me i cant contentrate or pay attention. my brain turns really slow and i cant initiate topics. i cant plan and think of things on the spot, forgetting things and end up regretting the lousy decisions i do throughout the day. when i was driving just now i almost ended up in an accident 3 times! i didnt notice the motocycle that drove pass me. i didnt see the road sign and almost turned the wrong place. i cant focus and pulled the breaks on a light that just turned yellow a second ago, and i was already at the traffic lights already. what is wrong with me!? lack of sleep. yesh! i thought to myself. i cant afford all of those things. i know myself.
so there are certain things in my life that i really couldnt sacrifice. i will get very mad at myself if i were to waste unnecessary time, money, effort, etc. am i a bad person? am i a bossy person? a control freak? am i like Bree in desperate housewives? do tell me. im still trying to figure out myself.
like for example it doesnt make sense if you wanna buy a bottle of shampoo in gurney plaza when you can actually get the same one in tesco, 3 mins drive from my house. free parking. minus the jam, petrol and time. i would insist on buying the same shampoo at tesco. not being inconsiderate about the others but yeah it really doesnt make sense. unless you make the things look like they make sense.
cause if poeple explain and try to persuade me on doing something of buying something, there is actually a high chance of me falling for it.
note: this post was written on a really sleepy brain, it is very long, i didnt bother to make it short and easier to read. my brain is slow. i dont remember what i wrote 15 mins ago.
before that bin took her contact lense off when she reached home. without washing her hands with soap. my eyes were kinda dry and i wanna take them off too. i washed my hands with soap, rubbed and rinsed it with saline water and place them in fresh lense solution. and i thought to myself. am i the only one who does that all the time?
as i was the one who set the alarm the night before, i woke up earlier than the rest of them even after at least 1 hour of snoozing. i brushed my teeth, bin's mom bought ban chang kuey. i was up and eating already and they are all still in bed. then i spotted a hp charging in the corner. i had to switch it off. i dont know who's hp is it, charging overnight can kill the lifespan of a battery. i had to switch it off. im till on my holiday, i can actually sleep till late but i dont want to. cause no.1 we have to go to butterworth, 2, hav lunch, 3, go for a movie, 4, maybe a spa (or not) and 4, be home by 4pm cause bin has rehersals. plus (5) if i wake up late i will sleep really late at night and it will 1, turn my biological clock upside down. 2, in time make me look older than i actually am, 3, affect my health, 4, add more eye bags on me when the past 2/3 months have given me balloon sized eyebags that i wish i could just pop it with a needle. 5, its not my house. 6, i just couldnt sleep till too late ok? hahaha...
then when they were still getting ready, even though i know she has a maid, i cudnt stand the junk food wrapers and empty bottles on the floor. i had to pick them up.
so i told bin n asked her about it and she said "good la, perfectionist."
then i thought of what liang told me about a friend who is like the virgo in virgos. ultimate perfectionists.
me? a perfectionist? you gotta be kidding! though i am not sure what i am still. my lack of capability in juggling my life between my work life, social life, love life, family life and all the other lifes in me costed me to lose an extremely valueable, meaningful and happy life. when i hav been trying so hard on so many things at so many times to juggle between them.
even bin told me, she's leaving in a few days. she cant spend every minute with edwin even if the both of them wanted to. cause she needs to do alot of other things. which includes going out with all of us and all. she cant stay over his place too often cause she needs to be with her mom at home as well. she had to run errands and get a few things settled. do rehersals for a performance on wednesday. she had to juggle all of those things in life. and she couldnt spend too much time with edwin. it totally make sense. unless he doesnt mind to run errands and all with her and all....
sleep, to me, is extremely important. aside from the points listed above, i know myself, that if i dont get enough sleep, i will be cranky throughout the day. when people talk to me i cant contentrate or pay attention. my brain turns really slow and i cant initiate topics. i cant plan and think of things on the spot, forgetting things and end up regretting the lousy decisions i do throughout the day. when i was driving just now i almost ended up in an accident 3 times! i didnt notice the motocycle that drove pass me. i didnt see the road sign and almost turned the wrong place. i cant focus and pulled the breaks on a light that just turned yellow a second ago, and i was already at the traffic lights already. what is wrong with me!? lack of sleep. yesh! i thought to myself. i cant afford all of those things. i know myself.
so there are certain things in my life that i really couldnt sacrifice. i will get very mad at myself if i were to waste unnecessary time, money, effort, etc. am i a bad person? am i a bossy person? a control freak? am i like Bree in desperate housewives? do tell me. im still trying to figure out myself.
like for example it doesnt make sense if you wanna buy a bottle of shampoo in gurney plaza when you can actually get the same one in tesco, 3 mins drive from my house. free parking. minus the jam, petrol and time. i would insist on buying the same shampoo at tesco. not being inconsiderate about the others but yeah it really doesnt make sense. unless you make the things look like they make sense.
cause if poeple explain and try to persuade me on doing something of buying something, there is actually a high chance of me falling for it.
note: this post was written on a really sleepy brain, it is very long, i didnt bother to make it short and easier to read. my brain is slow. i dont remember what i wrote 15 mins ago.
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