A note from Jake...

Jane,

"Against all odds, against mountains of adversities we fought and fought,
Finally I've got you, someone i sought...
With you, it felt like the past doesn't matter anymore,
Only what the future holds, which stretched out so far with love that seeps through the core...
It's only less than a year but it seem like a millenium since our first hug,
We finish each others' sentences, as if we each had a copy of "the 1001 guide to Jake and Jane",
We could basically read each other like a book...which was good...
Nearly half the period of relationship wasn't spent right beside you,
But it still feels as if you were right beside me all the time, even when i am standing in for a Macca's que...
The smell of your hair lingers on, though i think it's my imagination,
The warmth of your touch still caresses the spot where our hands intertwined...
You were everything i could ask for, your voice picked me up, your smile was like an umbrella on a rainy day, your love was like the scent of flowers in spring which made my every step seem like a hop...
It seemed like it would never stop...

Like the storm after a sunny day, the waves crashed in, the once strong wall built to keep it out broke through small cracks that was left there like scars, it was so sudden...
It was as if all the happiness turned into burden...
It felt as if even a small step forward would require every single ounce of strength,
I sat down and counted telling myself that i would try again when i reach the tenth...
Realised that i could not even move, as if something was pinning me down, pinning me back...
Tears that can't seem to flow just a few days ago are welling up around my eyes,
I wanna lie by your side once more,
I wanna taste your lips once more,
I wanna hold you in my arms once more,
Go back to the days where nothing else around matters, just us...once more...

I hope you know,
It's not your fault, I know it's harsh...
but sorry, i think it's time i move on to find myself...
On this path I've tried to picture us together hand in hand,
I really tried but it seemed as impossible as threading through the desert's sand...
It's something i have to do on my own,
Your love i will keep, your hugs i will miss...
Just like a kid's teddy bear, i will have to leave and move on,
Till the day when this path takes it's final turn, on us i will definitely reminisce...
When this journey ends, maybe it will still be you, maybe just a shadow of you that i see at the end of the line...

I cannot make any promises,
but in my heart will always be a piece of us...."

Jake....


A note taken from a japanese folk story