another day of work

i got home from work today at 9.30+. basically i was just assigned to 1 huge task and one task only.

today the conceptual writing (CW) division, the division that im in, were moving their tables. rearranging the desks and all. since i was seated in the Multimedia division (MM) i didnt hav anything to worry, but to wait for the usual morning briefing. which was suppose to be at 9.30 / 10 every morning, its now at 11.30. so everybody started their day late. including me. that takes the morning few hours off the clock. plus, today is jamie and miky's birthday celebration. we went to the pantry and out to the garden to play a prank on them. it was fun but then again, it another hour off my clock.

i had my lunch at 2 something. after lunch, at 3, May gave me the copy of my article. state the points that needs to amend, and asked me to give it to her at 4.30. at 4, Mclean who was sitting behind me, kept rushing me, as the MM people need to put my article in the web site that they are working on. i did and did and did, and i still cant finish at 4.30 so i asked if i can send her by 5 and she said ok. then i did and did and did again, by the time i send her its already 6. the last msg that i got frm her was "your 1 and a half hours late" =='( =='( =='( and i need to send her for her approval then only i can send Mclean to put it in the website. n Mclean was rushing me still... =='( after the bday celebration it was around 7 something already. i had to do more amendments to my article. May was staying back because she needs to see my article. she's the only person left in CW. everybody went back already. =='( =='( because of me and me 1 person, everybody is waiting for meeeeee =='( and i was just assigned for 1 task only. to write 1 small article and it took me the whole day. its not because Studeo Grafix tortured me and gave me alot of work just so i go home late everyday. they just gave me 1 task. 1 task and i couldnt even get it done in time. going home early is very important for me. and immaking people wait, and people are going home late because of me. =='( =='( =='(

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Yesterday Jay asked me : do you know any business magazines?
i said : nope... y?
jay: nvm
me: need help on something?
jay: can u tell me what business magazines do people read to upgrade their marketing skills?
me *went on google and typed, business magazine list* none of them are familiar at all to me. so i said : im not sure ler... the Star Bizweek? does Forbes magazine count? *simply picking up a name from the google site*
jay: Think! what magazines do people read if they wanna know more about business and marketing?
but the problem is... i dont even know a single business magazine name! how to give her the name of a magazine that people read????? i mean, if u dont like sports or something, how would u know even, of the name of one single sports magazine?
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sighh... izit me or izit my lack-of-general-common-knowledge or im just plain stupid?


May is nice when she say "don wry, i started off just like you" well it made me feel better but it doesnt make me feel good. im not comparing myself with her when she first came here. im comparing myself with who she is right now. she's been in Studeo Grafix for 3 yrs now. not that imma wannabe or something but, when everybody around you is good and your a rotten apple in the basket you tend to either wanna polish and de-rotten-fy yourself, or throw yourself out frm the baskat rather than to stay in the basket. i mean, who's thick faced enough to do that?

maybe its stress. maybe its pms. maybe it me. i have nothing to say or to complain.