im not done yet

grow up lah please. you're so childish that when relatives say "hey your younger sis is growing tall, she's now taller than u already"
and u go "no lahhh where got" with that no-way-ur-going-to-win-this face. then u stand upright, not slouching and stick ur chest as far as possible just to show that you're taller. please lah. i've got so so sooo many friends that their younger sister is taller. its like, so what? its in the genes. like this also u wanna fight? puh-leeeez... all the sisters in the whole world shud argue everyday just cause the younger one cant stop herself from getting taller. its like so childish. i dont care even if my younger sis is taller. its just normal and u just wanna fight over things like that. whats the big deal?? what's wrong with u???
all u want is to win. since when sisters get competitive? since i had a sister with the brain of the size of a guppy.
u have this locked cupboard in your room. hmm i dont think its big enough for u to keep everything in. u keep everything inside just cause u donwan me to take to use ma. i know. u even keep sanitary pads inside. the other day everybody went kl. u mom n dad. n it was my period day and im out of pads. then what? i smsed u to ask n see if u got or not. yeah.. u have those pads. its in the locked cupboard and the keys are with u in kl ma.. luckily i was going out with liang that night and we were stil friends and do u know how pai seh i was to go sanitary pad shoppin with a guy friend??? no u dont know. u dont even care do u?
you're so selfish and self-obsessed that u even picked out the spoons at home. 'this spoon is mine dont use it" even grandma uses it n u go ballistic. its like what the hell??? wash it afterwards lahhhh.
the other day we were arguing months ago and u told dad "hey im not the one who was caught shoplifting!" well for ur information, the first time i shop lifted, u taught me to. it was in kl u took a few pins frm a stall and i followed. afta that it has been a habit for me. all thanks to u. and i kept quiet all along. looks like i shud have told mom and dad like 8 years ago.
and afta i got into an accident and made a dent in the myvi, mom asked u to call the repair guy to arrange a date to fix the car n u went "why ask me to call!! im not the one who made the c ar this way!" 1. ur friend's dad works as the car repairman that we are about to call. 2. fine give me the damn number n i'll call him myself. wait u didnt gv me how to cal? maybe i shud go korek it out from your hp and risk getting screams from u about not-touching-your-stuff, just so u wont have to call. 3. u think i wanna get into that damn accident and waste a few hundred bucks? i think ur mind works that way. selfish self-centered.
if u wanna fight that way, well ur the one who doesnt have high cholesterol and doesnt hav to feed on cholesterol drugs to survive. ur the one who is fat and not stick skinny and is healthy all the way. you're not the one who got hospitalized so many times since birth. you're the one with a pretty face and a perfectly normal lower jaw and big boobs and plus, you're fat! you're the one with the perfect bf (well boo to u i got myself someone better now) and you're not the one who gets sick and make frequent visits to the clinic. you're not the one with asthma or whatever it is that makes my face hands n legs go numb. look you're life is perfect what do u want from me? if i wanna borrow anything from u, its cuz u have it n i dont. why the hell wud i wanna use your things if i already have my own? guppy brain. and when u use my stuff, well i keep quiet. its about time i stand up for myself and yeah things got worse. maybe liang's right. one of us should move out. maybe she will notice the absence of me one day and realize that im gone. what will happen then?
1. she will be happy she doesnt have to see my face anymore, she can have everything she wants. she doenst have to lock up her stuff. she's happy. thats good.
if not? 2. she will miss me. yeah and pig brains can fly.
"i dont need her!" well of course u dont, u only need calvin. cuz ur salary is $1000+ out of degree. and its the qian jin xiao jie's first job. hmmm... im pretty sure and confident that my FORTH job will earn more than that. within a year i can take care of mom and dad and u?
"my colleague earns 1000+ a mnth and her mom pays for her car, her rent, her food and all she spend on is nothing but shopping. so syok" oh so u wanna be like that. what a daughter. mroe reasons for me to go to aust or anywher else to get my degree just so i can take care of mom and dad. ur unreliable.

btw, u shud go and get a job as a private investigator. im really impressed how u found out that i used your pc for like 15mins. hmm... really really impressed. i kept everything as clean as possible. the photos as evidence? they were there since uncle sing's trip here. i cud have lied all the way and not admit that i used your pc. still, im still impressed. u really should be some CSI detective. u'd earn so much more, enough for u to go shopping everyday.

the only clothes of yours that im allowed to wear is what? clothes that u no longer want them anymre. hand me downs. i dont really mind. i have been wearing them since im a baby. but the ting that pisses me off is that im not allowed to share your clothes. only allowed certain clothes which after that i realize, after i wore them once u dont want them anymore. what do u think i m? charity? its like those that u dont want, and u treat it as rubbish, then only u give them to me. u use the word share. ur just sharing ur clothes with me. yeah right. bullshit. all ended up in my closet n mom n dad goes "u got so many clothes to wear already" when half of them is ur rubbish. i barely buy clothes. these few years only i start buying more because i realize that u were giving me rubbish all along. thanks, i appreciate your LOVING N KINDNESS but no thanks.
saying that what i wear isnt nice. i wear this n this is ugly. maybe i shud wear like u. nothing but long jeans and a shirt or singlet or spaghettis with a belt n heels. and thats it. thats all u wear everyday. stay safe huh? that doesnt earn u a privilege of being able to critic me. so just shut up unless your dressing taste is better than mine.
tak syok cause i get to drive the new car? well its just a myvi i tot u hated small sized cars. now u got the persona, i dont even care if i don get to drive a new car. its just a damn car what to fuss about? now im beginning to think that dad bought the persona just to shut u up. maybe, maybe not. u get to drive wat, u drive to work only ma. drive out at 9. park under the sun the whole day til 5 then u drive home. so u drive new car mom drive old car la izit?yeah i think it works that way selfish guppy brain. now u get to drive the new persona to work n park under the sun while mom drives an older car. hmm...
"y does she get to use this/do this/ go there when i dont get to do it when i was at her age!"
if u wanna argue about that, well i dont get as much freedom as u do when u were at my age.
mom always gets ballistic and dont let me drive the car when u get to, when u were at my age.
u wanna dye ur hair n mom goes hair-dye shopping with u. just cause u say u got white hair? i've got loads of them too! and when i say i wanna dye my hair, mom says "dont dye already u dyed last time. dont keep dying your hair" last time is like 2 yrs ago? the black hair came out from the roots and they have reached like my ears already.the last time u dyed? half a year ago. the last time my parents dyed? last month. they've got more white hair i know. but her? pfftt...
u go clubbing when u were at my age. n mom says, becareful. me? mom says no way, dont go. u wanna go i bring u there. like what the hell! if u wanna fight for fairness n equality, i've got so much to say that blogging is actually useless. u get to go to hotel stays. do i? once in a while.
when the both of us buy a new shirt at the same time, mom comes over n say "wat did u buy? let me see" cause she doesnt trust my taste!!! she wanna see what i bought then nag me about it, she doesnt even care what u buy! then if we both drove out alone. at 9pm mom n dad keeps callin me askin me to go home. then calls at 10pm. then a 11. then at midnight. u? u get the freedom that i dont. happy now? u got their trust n im just one of their worrying baby girl that will never grow up and will never let me go even if im like what? 20 yrs old? "20 n u think ur an adult d ar?" technically yes. thats what the dictionary says isnt it? yeah welcome to my life.

all these complains i've been keeping it to me for years. i kept quiet. not complaining at home doesnt mean i dont have anything to complain about. well now? the balloon burst. hooray to me. i wanna move out.